I don't know when this was written but I'd like to say this is exactly how I feel! I am not an only child though I have several siblings nine of us to be exact. I've always felt off about this world from when I was younger. Even then I'd always think about a tall man with dark hair that curls he's very handsome but I'd always feel this sadness that I couldn't be there for him. Sometimes I have these thoughts that I had gotten into some sort of accident I don't know how but I'm rapidly bleeding and these memory like thoughts pop up randomly I feel as if right now I'm actually in a coma and this isn't really real or I some how possessed the body I am in now. I have no real memories of when I was a child but then again there was a lot of trauma involved but I feel that my name isn't my name like I have another one? I am twenty and I'm currently going to college. I am avidly fascinated with advertisement you throw a product at me and in two seconds I have an ad for it. Some times i think if I die in this world I'll re-awaken in the real world. (not that I'm going to commit suicide.) But it really is strange I don't want to have children in this life I don't know why but I love children I just can't have my own like I'd be hurting the feelings of my real children? I don't know haha It's really weird but I get that wall feeling I enjoy being by myself and reading because I feel like those stories are the closest thing to my actual reality. But those books are always dark that make me feel like it's real like a bit ago I had this memory flash before my eyes. I was sitting on this dirty bed on the floor of this abandoned place chained and but it wasn't the me now but another me and I felt the pain and the sadness of that experience. I don't know. I know I'm sounding strange.
I've always felt that I don't belong in this world, is this normal?
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Hi everyone,
I don't know when this was written but I'd like to say this is exactly how I feel! I am not an only child though I have several siblings nine of us to be exact. I've always felt off about this world from when I was younger. Even then I'd always think about a tall man with dark hair that curls he's very handsome but I'd always feel this sadness that I couldn't be there for him. Sometimes I have these thoughts that I had gotten into some sort of accident I don't know how but I'm rapidly bleeding and these memory like thoughts pop up randomly I feel as if right now I'm actually in a coma and this isn't really real or I some how possessed the body I am in now. I have no real memories of when I was a child but then again there was a lot of trauma involved but I feel that my name isn't my name like I have another one? I am twenty and I'm currently going to college. I am avidly fascinated with advertisement you throw a product at me and in two seconds I have an ad for it. Some times i think if I die in this world I'll re-awaken in the real world. (not that I'm going to commit suicide.) But it really is strange I don't want to have children in this life I don't know why but I love children I just can't have my own like I'd be hurting the feelings of my real children? I don't know haha It's really weird but I get that wall feeling I enjoy being by myself and reading because I feel like those stories are the closest thing to my actual reality. But those books are always dark that make me feel like it's real like a bit ago I had this memory flash before my eyes. I was sitting on this dirty bed on the floor of this abandoned place chained and but it wasn't the me now but another me and I felt the pain and the sadness of that experience. I don't know. I know I'm sounding strange.