Hi everyone! I too am posting because I feel the same way. However, I feel that my feeling of not belonging is a tad bit worse. I guess I'm posting to vent or to grasp some sort of answer. I'm not really sure. Anyways, here's my own story...
I am a 21 year old girl. I'm not an only child (I have an older brother), but I might has well have been. There was an age gap of 6 & 1/2 years between us and he was always busy with extra curricular activities. My parents put my brother in daycare in his very first years of life. When I was born, my mom decided to quit her job & stay home with me until I was 3 or 4. My mom is very very sweet, but she doesn't have a life outside of our home. She had no friends, she kept in contact with her parents and no one else really, and she always cleaned around the house even if it wasn't that dirty. So little ole me was stuck in a house 24/7 with my mom only (until my dad and brother got home & they just kinda did their own thing). So I spent ALOT of time imagining and being in my room alone. When it was time to go to school & interact,I was just considered "shy" or "quiet" when I didn't know how to connect with others. Over the years I got somewhat better and was able to sort of connect with one or two people, but other than that... I was a big, awkward, nervous, dull, noodle. I've had relationships in high school and one in college, but they mainly drug on because (not to toot any horns or anything) I am decently attractive and we were having sex. Thats reallyyyy sad. but its the honest truth. I didn't realize that until now, but looking back. That's exactly why. Now here I am at 21. I had a big moment of realization that I'm no where close to being an adult. I'm basically that same little imaginative kid whose now having to be forced to go out and make my own life. The problem is... I don't want to have a man, or children, or a stupid 9 to 5 repetitive job, or a cookie cutter house/apartment. I don't want to work my absolute ass off just to feed my face & put a roof over my head. My parents drilled into me that I would someday have all of these things, but what the crap is the point to doing this day in and day out over and over and over. Then having children so they can grow up & do the same junk over & over & overrr. When does the cycle end!? lol. I dont want to end my life at all (I'm saying that because you may think that by reading all that) but what the heck am I gonna do if I don't have the drive for this. I wish I could restart my life again and have a different upbringing so that maybe I wouldn't have never had too much time to think to myself & not connecting with others. There are things about this life I DO enjoy. I LOVE the outdoors. Like I love the beach, the mountains, the way the sun feels on your skin when you step outside. I just can't stand the fact that I have to deal with people and be apart of the everyday relentless grind!!!!!!!!!!!
ive prefered to be alone my entire life,love my family and im actually quite good at socializing i just dont like to really do it at all if i can avoid it,never want and still dont want kids.i came to the conclusion ill die alone and happy with my plants and video games(with the occasional visit from the fam)i found that a hobby like growing stuff and cooking/fishing is incredible and works wonders for a person who lives inside their own head most of the time,any hobby you can enjoy alone like that brings incredible amounts of solace and peace if youre anything like me.i laugh at the amount of people who assume im gay because i dont date at all and am a good looker,truth is ive always been attracted to women but people annoy me to no end asking me WHATS WRONG,YOU OK? just because im extremely quiet and too myself..dont like to be touched most of the time even im pretty solitary haha.point is it helps to find hobbies that truly bring you a measure of peace and take your mind off it all,will go a long ways to make it not feel like a relentless grind
U and I had a similar upbringing except I'm male n had a lil bro. We don't belong in this world we r spiritual beings, so seek GOD n ur spiritual side, u r who u r. I see the world like u n others like us see it the same. GOD will lead u, mind of a child heart of a king/queen.✌️🤗👍
I've always felt that I don't belong in this world, is this normal?
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Hi everyone! I too am posting because I feel the same way. However, I feel that my feeling of not belonging is a tad bit worse. I guess I'm posting to vent or to grasp some sort of answer. I'm not really sure. Anyways, here's my own story...
I am a 21 year old girl. I'm not an only child (I have an older brother), but I might has well have been. There was an age gap of 6 & 1/2 years between us and he was always busy with extra curricular activities. My parents put my brother in daycare in his very first years of life. When I was born, my mom decided to quit her job & stay home with me until I was 3 or 4. My mom is very very sweet, but she doesn't have a life outside of our home. She had no friends, she kept in contact with her parents and no one else really, and she always cleaned around the house even if it wasn't that dirty. So little ole me was stuck in a house 24/7 with my mom only (until my dad and brother got home & they just kinda did their own thing). So I spent ALOT of time imagining and being in my room alone. When it was time to go to school & interact,I was just considered "shy" or "quiet" when I didn't know how to connect with others. Over the years I got somewhat better and was able to sort of connect with one or two people, but other than that... I was a big, awkward, nervous, dull, noodle. I've had relationships in high school and one in college, but they mainly drug on because (not to toot any horns or anything) I am decently attractive and we were having sex. Thats reallyyyy sad. but its the honest truth. I didn't realize that until now, but looking back. That's exactly why. Now here I am at 21. I had a big moment of realization that I'm no where close to being an adult. I'm basically that same little imaginative kid whose now having to be forced to go out and make my own life. The problem is... I don't want to have a man, or children, or a stupid 9 to 5 repetitive job, or a cookie cutter house/apartment. I don't want to work my absolute ass off just to feed my face & put a roof over my head. My parents drilled into me that I would someday have all of these things, but what the crap is the point to doing this day in and day out over and over and over. Then having children so they can grow up & do the same junk over & over & overrr. When does the cycle end!? lol. I dont want to end my life at all (I'm saying that because you may think that by reading all that) but what the heck am I gonna do if I don't have the drive for this. I wish I could restart my life again and have a different upbringing so that maybe I wouldn't have never had too much time to think to myself & not connecting with others. There are things about this life I DO enjoy. I LOVE the outdoors. Like I love the beach, the mountains, the way the sun feels on your skin when you step outside. I just can't stand the fact that I have to deal with people and be apart of the everyday relentless grind!!!!!!!!!!!
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ive prefered to be alone my entire life,love my family and im actually quite good at socializing i just dont like to really do it at all if i can avoid it,never want and still dont want kids.i came to the conclusion ill die alone and happy with my plants and video games(with the occasional visit from the fam)i found that a hobby like growing stuff and cooking/fishing is incredible and works wonders for a person who lives inside their own head most of the time,any hobby you can enjoy alone like that brings incredible amounts of solace and peace if youre anything like me.i laugh at the amount of people who assume im gay because i dont date at all and am a good looker,truth is ive always been attracted to women but people annoy me to no end asking me WHATS WRONG,YOU OK? just because im extremely quiet and too myself..dont like to be touched most of the time even im pretty solitary haha.point is it helps to find hobbies that truly bring you a measure of peace and take your mind off it all,will go a long ways to make it not feel like a relentless grind
U and I had a similar upbringing except I'm male n had a lil bro. We don't belong in this world we r spiritual beings, so seek GOD n ur spiritual side, u r who u r. I see the world like u n others like us see it the same. GOD will lead u, mind of a child heart of a king/queen.✌️🤗👍