I signed up just to reply to this. I also feel the exact same way but I'm 30 years old and have one sister and a deceased brother (not an only child). I was born with my umbiliquol chord wrapped around my neck and my heart stopped beating for a bit. Obviously, the doctors revived me but my whole life I have felt completely disconnected with this entire world and I sometimes wonder if I was supposed to have died that day... as sick as that sounds.
I prefer being alone with my thoughts though I do have a select few (extremely) close friends. I write orchestral music to express my emotions and feelings, some of wich are thoughts and feelings I get from "memories" I know I don't really have. I constantly think about worlds beyond our own. Specifically, I have memory-like sensations almost on an instinctual level of a world shrouded in twilight of a dim, red star and a (very smart) woman and her child (a little girl) living near a cliff on a ocean-like body of water. Is that my family? I don't know. (And because I know some people reading this are thinking that I probably have trouble getting a significant other, causing me to fantasize this I'll say, I've had quite a number of girlfriends.)
Don't get me wrong. Logically, I know that these feelings are just fantasies but I still can't shake them. They almost give me comfort.
On the plus side, these feelings have caused me to take a huge interest in astronomy and physics which I love. The only groups of people in this world that give me any interest are the ones exploring science and space like NASA, ESA, SpaceX, CERN, etc. I feel closer to "home" when I see imagry and think about the universe.
Yes, yes and yes.
I almost started to cry reading all those answers, yours especially.
I'm 29 years old and not an only child (younger sister and brother). My mother told me my heart beat slower and slower during my birth, as if I didn't want to be born.
If it wasn't for modern medicine, I wouldn't be here. Sometimes I wonder, if I should be here.
No I'm not suicidal, I love being alive.
There are does memories, or more emotions, I have, from another place, other people I think I should know.
Just like you I don't want to shake those fantasies. I feel at home there.
After more than ten years, I finally started writing the story to that feeling. It only made the other world appear bigger and more vivid.
How can we live in this world and do all those mundane tasks every day? I want to travel, live and see this world, because I know, I cannot go to another.
But I can't because that would mean I had to leave my boyfriend.
I don't have many friends, I think it's just too exhausting doing smalltalk. I can never talk about the things I really feel passionate about because the people I know are so different than me.
I've always felt that I don't belong in this world, is this normal?
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I signed up just to reply to this. I also feel the exact same way but I'm 30 years old and have one sister and a deceased brother (not an only child). I was born with my umbiliquol chord wrapped around my neck and my heart stopped beating for a bit. Obviously, the doctors revived me but my whole life I have felt completely disconnected with this entire world and I sometimes wonder if I was supposed to have died that day... as sick as that sounds.
I prefer being alone with my thoughts though I do have a select few (extremely) close friends. I write orchestral music to express my emotions and feelings, some of wich are thoughts and feelings I get from "memories" I know I don't really have. I constantly think about worlds beyond our own. Specifically, I have memory-like sensations almost on an instinctual level of a world shrouded in twilight of a dim, red star and a (very smart) woman and her child (a little girl) living near a cliff on a ocean-like body of water. Is that my family? I don't know. (And because I know some people reading this are thinking that I probably have trouble getting a significant other, causing me to fantasize this I'll say, I've had quite a number of girlfriends.)
Don't get me wrong. Logically, I know that these feelings are just fantasies but I still can't shake them. They almost give me comfort.
On the plus side, these feelings have caused me to take a huge interest in astronomy and physics which I love. The only groups of people in this world that give me any interest are the ones exploring science and space like NASA, ESA, SpaceX, CERN, etc. I feel closer to "home" when I see imagry and think about the universe.
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way!
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Yes, yes and yes.
I almost started to cry reading all those answers, yours especially.
I'm 29 years old and not an only child (younger sister and brother). My mother told me my heart beat slower and slower during my birth, as if I didn't want to be born.
If it wasn't for modern medicine, I wouldn't be here. Sometimes I wonder, if I should be here.
No I'm not suicidal, I love being alive.
There are does memories, or more emotions, I have, from another place, other people I think I should know.
Just like you I don't want to shake those fantasies. I feel at home there.
After more than ten years, I finally started writing the story to that feeling. It only made the other world appear bigger and more vivid.
How can we live in this world and do all those mundane tasks every day? I want to travel, live and see this world, because I know, I cannot go to another.
But I can't because that would mean I had to leave my boyfriend.
I don't have many friends, I think it's just too exhausting doing smalltalk. I can never talk about the things I really feel passionate about because the people I know are so different than me.