I think i might be obsessed with black men

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I'm 21, and I'm a science major at a community college, where I work as a math and science tutor for my work-study. I'm a small and thin, but shy and nerdy pretty boy, and am very white, with blonde hair and blue eyes. A little over a month ago an older black student came in, and I was helping him with his math. Even though he seemed pretty good at it, he offered me money to tutor him at home, and I agreed.

When I got to his house he tried getting me to take my clothes off. He got me to smoke weed with him, and afterwards told me he wanted to fuck me like a girl.
Which was very weird to me because he didn't seem even remotely gay! He was extremely masculine, and even a little thugged out. I told him I was straight, and he laughed at me, and told me that he's heard that from white boys before. He considers himself straight, because he dosen't really consider white boys as males, and because black men have sex as "the man," and whites have sex as "the girl."

He explained that he's just DL "down low," and lots of white boys who have girlfreinds and everything are sexually submissive to black men, but that nobody ever talks about it. He claims to have fucked tons of so called "straight" white boys like they were female porn stars. And, claimed that a lot of black guys do the same. He himself has a girlfreind. I told him I wasn't interested, but honestly he made me feel really feminine, he talked to me like a girl, hit on me like a girl, felt me up like a girl, and I became extremely nervous and like... excited during all this.

Eventually he gave up on me, and I went home. However, afterwards I became obsessed with interracial porn, and I realize that I'm associating with the girls, not the black males pounding them. And, then... actually got into black man on white boy stuff, and for some reason got REALLY excited by it, and have been fantasizing like non-stop about it. I see the same student time to time, and I'm begining to seriously consider taking his offer!!!

But, its so crazy because I NEVER considered myself gay, and I have no attraction to non-black males, and have ONLY suddenly become attracted to masculine black guys, and I'm freaking out... because I think I'm going to have sex with this guy if he approaches me again! What's goin on with me??? Is this normal?!?!?!?

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  • Fitgee
    6 years ago | pl

    Wow that is soooo fucking hott!!! I have been waiting for a situation like that to arise w me ... I'm a straight white male I have a hott wife but I love bbc and want a chance to please one ! I want to see what it like for those white porn star girls to take all that cock and then have that bbc unload sum cum all on my mouth and make me take it like a bitch .... You should consider your self lucky and got get that yummy black cock and do your hardest , don't hold back and please that black cock however he wants you to ... I would have dropped to my knees that second he asked me and I'm a virgin

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  • Jamiesexxy
    6 years ago | pl

    I'm also attracted to women and black men, i made out with a black guy once and he felt me up and i went down on him but i was too nervous to have sex with him...now i can't stop thinking about it!

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  • Chrislondonx
    7 years ago | pl

    So, did you do it? I've been obsessed with interracial gay sex for years, but finally got round to try it only recently: it's the best thing ever, and I wish I'd done it a long time ago...

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  • kelili
    10 years ago | pl

    Yes you're obsessed and obsession in never never never good. Have as much fantasms as you want but don't have sex with this guy. You'll feel bad after, I'm sure. This guy is a jerk, people are not trophies you collection. Do you really want to be just another guy he fucked? Is that what you want?

    And if you really really want to experience gay sex choose another guy. One that respects you. This guy will bring you no good.

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  • quentari
    10 years ago | pl

    If you haven't really been hit on like that before you may feel overly flattered and be reading more into your own feelings than are really there, but you may also be bi-curious or even bisexual/gay. the fact that you're only attracted to masculine black guys doesn't mean much. Lots of people are very picky about their attractions.

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  • CheyChey
    10 years ago | pl

    I think this man might have gotten into your head and planted these feelings that weren't there before. You just probably liked the attention he gave you and now you think you're gay. Some people have that gift they appeal to your emotions and not your reasoning. You need to make up your mind whether you like guys or not, should you have sex with this man and then realise that you're not gay after all and you were confused at the time it's something you will never forget and it torment you.

    This type of situation nobody can tell you what to do you just to look inside yourself. It is normal and what is going on is that you're just temporarily confused about your sexual orientation

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    • [email protected]
      8 years ago | pl

      http://xtube.com/amateur_channels/play.php?v=0o9FzZc7vMV&type=preview

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    • [Old Memory]
      9 years ago | pl

      agreed. He is manipulating the OP and the OP doesn't even know it.

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    • LilyAmongTheThorns
      10 years ago | pl

      Why on earth would experimenting with something and learning more about your sexuality "torment" you?

      Just because you tried something new and didn't like it doesn't mean it's some grave horrible thing. I think it's good to experience things and learn about yourself. Not that he should make the decision lightly, of course, but still, I think that's a bit drastic to say.

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      • CheyChey
        10 years ago | pl

        No it's not drastic at all, the mistake would be a grave one it's not that type of mistake you could forget easily. It will torment him if he has sex with a man then realise later that he is not gay or bisexual it's that regret that never goes away but if he discovers that he actually likes guys like that then it obviously won't torment him. I guess some people take experimenting with their sexuality lightly/ and or differently and I suppose our perception will differ.

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        • LilyAmongTheThorns
          10 years ago | pl

          I guess I just really disagree a lot with that idea. It's possible you're right and it's also possible I'm right but really the only person who would know if it's the sort of thing that will torment him greatly is the OP himself.

          So I'm not trying to say you're wrong, but insisting to the OP that it WILL happen just seems kind of... I dunno, I guess I'm saying its okay to offer advice but maybe try not to scare him away entirely from making his own decision? Sorry I really don't mean to offend or anything.

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          • CheyChey
            10 years ago | pl

            haha not offended at all maybe the way I said it could scare the OP I do that a lot when giving advice too intense, I do get your point though. Opinions opinions lol

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    • zelskid
      10 years ago | pl

      I think I figured it out. You are nuts

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  • PapzBSlim
    10 years ago | pl

    This is a troll post, right? Lol this is funny.

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  • LongCockLuvr
    7 years ago | pl

    @OP,

    I do not think you are weird and I do think what you feel is normal.

    You said it yourself.. "I'm a small and thin, but shy and nerdy pretty boy, and am very white, with blonde hair and blue eyes." You sound like to me that you have already admitted you are feminine. You have to admit, a lot of Black guy are big, strong, masculine and very well endowed. Compared to a big strong Black Stud you are like a girl.

    I am with you though..I think those huge hung Black Studs are so sexy.

    This is one of my most favorite videos ever. I wish I was the white boy in this video, though I would have been better than him.

    http://xhamster.com/movies/1127485/huge_black_cock_fucks_white_boy.html

    Black Studs are definitely built and made for hot sexy with smooth white bois. There is nothing hotter than seeing horse hung Black Studs deep breeding smooth white bois..the contrast of skin colors is so beautiful. I want a horse hung Black Stud.

    LongCockLuvr @ G M a i l

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  • [email protected]
    8 years ago | pl

    I have been telling people this for years. Everything you stated is true.

    http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=Q3DWZ-S270-

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago | pl

    Don't do it. If your going to have sex with another guy don't have it be with a black guy on the "down low". He probably has AIDS. Once you get AIDS, you die. It's a terminal disease and a very, very painful death. Sometimes, your skin gets infected with all sorts of diseases, rots and falls off in large pieces. AIDS is basically the worst trip possible only its actually real and not all in your head

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    • Science.nerdy-White_boy
      9 years ago | pl

      I think that's just a negative stereotype, and besides... I am not, nor do I think I ever could be attracted to a man that wasn't black. I like girls, and black men... only I've never had any sexual experiences with a black man, as of yet. I'm not sure I ever will, but the thought crosses my mind quite often!

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      • [Old Memory]
        9 years ago | pl

        Well, "science nerd", I have to see this is a bit unusual. I'll give you this, I think you probably legitimately are attracted to women, at least on some level. However, I think this whole liking "black men" thing is because you enjoy the thrill of doing socially "unacceptable" things. To you, having sex with a black man is the ultimate form of defiance against all that you know and those around you "stand for". I have done some things that took me away from my upbringing and who I initially was and it changed me forever and no I am not talking about hallucinatory drugs (though they change you in their own way as well), I am talking about defying me upbringing and who I initially was. If you go ahead with this, you will be changed as a result of this experience more than you can even possibly imagine. You will no longer be the "you" that you are now, because the "you" that you are is all in your head. I changed over night as well and not while under the influence of anything at all and far before I ever used a drug of any sort. I just thought of myself totally differently and then all of a sudden the new person was who I became. When you do this, the same will happen. What I did was much more subtle (at first at least) but I changed drastically and quickly

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago | pl

    ...and this one time...in band camp...

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  • bristexai
    10 years ago | pl

    Don't do it...

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