I think i have ptsd from my last relationship and other abuse

I want to kick that guys ass.

I am dealing with that right now, save for he's stalked me and has physically abused me. It's possible that he'll make another account here just to post on this post that I'm a huge slut and what the fuck ever.

It used to do that to me. For the first few weeks ,I'd have anxiety attacks over the mere thought of having to see him or talk to him. After a while it just became too much and I went and asked some buddies who are cops and they told me that he's insane. You'd have to be to do that kind of shit to someone and I felt 100% better. I had failed to see what everyone else in my life observed clearly.

Emotional abuse, psychological abuse, stalking, physical abuse are all qualities and actions taken by someone who isn't right in the head. Even worse for them when they manage to continue the behavior without provocation. When you distinguish yourself and the abuser in your mind, it becomes obvious: I'm just the object of his anger, he's taking out whatever demons are in his head on me. I've never done anything like this to an ex, and the fact that he doesn't feel that you deserve to respect yourself enough to leave his abuse shows that he doesn't respect you. It gets easier to deal with the more you distance yourself from it. You'll see it for what it is: you crossed paths with a Grade A asshole.

Good job for being able to leave him! I'm sorry you've had all this. I think a good rule of thumb for dating and relationships.. look for inner beauty. If he's beautiful on the inside, he'll be good to you.

I wish people would just show their true true colors!!! Because sometimes, you just font know! Who they truly are. (Ok not saying you should burp loudly, but u get what i mean)
Right when you meet them, and date.
Its a concept I am wanting to find. Might of worded that wrong. But,
thankyou guys for your input. It helps.

When you are thinking of a memory your body doesn't know the difference between memory and reality and reacts just the same. This would explain your body's reaction.

It will take some time. I have no idea what that's like but I hope things get better for you.

Two months isn't nearly long enough to get over that sort of trauma. I too hope you find yourself a good therapist experienced in family violence so you can not only move on from that shit relationship, but guard yourself against getting into another abusive situation.

I hope your getting some therapy to help you deal with your trauma. I am truly sorry that happened to you!

Was there any sort of history of abuse or neglect in your family of origin?