I think i have an obsession with pregnancy

I went through so much trial and error, discovered so much information and figured out exactly what it would take to get pregnant and have the baby of my dreams. I read hundreds of clinical trial papers, I spent hours on end at the library researching reproduction and I studied countless articles, medical reports, web sites, books, transcripts, research papers and forum posts. I spent many hours (and dollars!) in consultation with different "fertility experts" and they didn't even tell me half of what I discovered! And then I found this amazing website http://aboutgettingpregnant.com . After following all the methods in the e-book, I cried tears of happiness at the sight of my positive pregnancy test, I released tears of anguish from all the months gone by, and I cried tears of hope that I would hold my precious baby who I wanted to love and care for so much.

it's normal to think about it but not normal to obsess over it.

It has gotten to the point where I had to buy a 9 months practise pregnant belly suite which I had to give up in March 2013, since my one and only bf found it and took to a charity shop. However I never really said that I had brought it or why. I feel empty without it.

I loved to still act very very fat and pregnant too wearing tight clothes (sometimes I wear an old swimming suite stuffed to the max) and a very tight belt. It does not feel the same anymore, and does not feel like I am carrying a baby.

am a lady and cannot stop watching pregnancy hardcore porn and having a good masturbate to it all.
Its gotten to the point where I had to buy (and now wear) a 9 months practise pregnant belly suite to do the job it fells so much better than stuffing myself and the best thing I brought. I love wearing it while watching pregnancy hardcore porn or stuff re pregnancy on TV or YouTube then masturbate rubbing a bath towel in-between my fanny and crossing my legs, when no one is around. Has anyone else brought one of these practise pregnant belly suite? I am thinking of wearing my suite one day around my village to see if any looks at me and to see how much turned on I get.

I too cannot see women, friends, family members or teachers pregnant in real life without being wet below and sexily aroused.I believe I would have to see something about pregnancy to get me in the mood before sex God I am so turned on now I need to go masturbate good and hard, as I am very wet too. View my story to read more!
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Ever since I was 13 I've wanted a baby, I've been obsessed like you lol.

i am so sorry for your loss.
i went through a miscarriage(completely diff from what you went thru but same feelings i had after wards teh grieving part) it was weird though. i had a miscarriage like 6 months after i had a baby.
i am the complete opposite of how you feel though. i don't want a baby anymore. i have my one daughter and i love her but no more for me. And its all bad because my baby's dad knocked me up again...i think. we will find out in 2 weeks from now. but i have gained like 7 pounds. this is depressing me. i hate being pregnant. it was awful for me. everything.
you can have my baby...jk
you should really occupy yourself. make yourelf bussy. but ask your doctor if it is possible fro you to get pregnant again. just keep trying. because when my husband and i first tried it took us almost 6 months to get pregnant. we triedfor 6 whole months. thats like having sex alsmost every day 5 times a day. NO JOKE. i was so sick of sex. lol
i was all this sex to go through hell for a yr
!!!!(for me it was because i was gestational diabetic-meaning only thru the pregnancy i was a diabetic) it was so fkn hard on me thats why i seriously don't want anymore babies. at least i don't want to get orego ever again although i may have already gotten pregnant again. !!!! FK MY LIFEEE!!!!!
Again i am so sorry for your loss. my best friend miscarried and tried for a while to get prego again and it worked. just keep trying. goodluck to you!

I agree with Ollieo, you are grieving and that's completely normal. Everyone gave great advice, have another child (even though another child won't replace Ashlyn, you could love the child how you would have loved her), work with kids (even though this might be painful at first, you might find yourself filling that void eventually), and give yourself some time to get over what happened. You may never fully recover, but at least you know people support you and understand how difficult this must be.
Stay strong!

You are grieving. Give yourself time.

I get the impression that this was not a planned pregnancy, that you are not in a good situation to start a family, and that that is part of the loss for you.

If that is the case, please wait until you can give everything to your baby she needs: the resources, stable relationship as well as love.

Try taking up a job that revolves around helping young children or something. That might help with your love for small children (:

:( awww I'm sorry that happened to you. Can't you get pregnant again?