I recently threw my drink at my aunt who (i feel) deserved it..
I hate my family. I have felt like they exclude me and gang up and bully me. I am a musician and I am currently in school. I focus a lot on my music. One day I was trying to talk to my mom about having a better relationship and talking more. My aunt (mom's half sister) kept butting in saying, "All you think of is yourself! Me! Me! Me!" and I kept asking her to stop and after 5 minutes of this, I finally threw my drink at her (blueberry smoothie) and I felt it was the only thing in that moment, which I could do to have her stop putting me down like that. I admit that I could have walked away, but I just felt I needed to explode like that. My mom and aunt are Chinese and very "hold their cool/calm facade." I happen to be the emotional expressive one. And losing it has made it seem like they are all against me. I have give $40 to my aunt for her shirt I ruined, and wrote her a letter, but I really just need to move out, but I have 5 more months of school left.
Is this normal to hate your family so much ? I really wish my aunt would die very often. Sad but its true and I feel so much anger towards her.