I really dont know what to do

So here is my deal, for the purpose of this my love shall be called Cheese. I met cheese 4 years ago i think and i liked them as a friend and that was it, it wasn’t untill a year later a knew there was something more but i wasn’t sure and when i would stare at them and see them with the top off i knew there was something more to it, i loved cheese. I am always funny around cheese and don’t mean ha ha funny i mean stuttering funny. I always try to sit next to cheese whenever i get the chance and try to seize any chance at talking to them, unfortunately within a few days we leave and i will never see cheese again. All i will have of them is the pictures and memories. Cheese will never know of my feelings for them because well lets just say this, i don’t think i’m cheese’s type.

I really have no clue what to do about this and my feelings, i thought writing this would help but it really hasn’t. Writing this has just made me realise how much i love Cheese

and yes i know this normal so i dont know why im posting it on here but i guess i just need someone to listen well read