I overreact to any social contact

I brood about a single non-hello from a store clerk for weeks. I go through great lengths to avoid people; for example, I will walk around an entire city block rather than pass someone I know even slightly. No one is allowed in my house, and I won't get in situations that would invite visits from anyone. Human contact is painful and I have a very low tolerance for pain. It is painful because no two people can interact without conflict. Social contact and the resulting emotions overwhelm me. I am extremely reactive in a hateful way to any two or more people talking in hushed voices while staring at me and feel 'done to' by others. I also feel rage when anyone invades the careful boundaries I have erected around me. Paradoxically, even though my solitude is by choice, I feel hurt when people dislike me or ignore me. Their behavior makes me hate them even more.

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Comments ( 7 )
  • mouldiwarp

    Do you know if you are autistic or have trauma/social anxiety disorder? Those could explain it.

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    • I'm a functional alcoholic who also happens to be a perfectionist.

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  • goyja-yearnin

    develop a god complex or somth idk

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  • raisinbran

    Next time a store clerk doesn’t say hello, smash your fist on the counter and demand they say hello.

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  • RoseIsabella

    Have you ever sought professional help?

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    • If letting people who make you feel there's something wrong about how you authentically feel advise you on how you should live your life amounts to seeking professional help, then no. I've never.

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      • raisinbran

        That’s not how therapy works.

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