I need help. bipolar disorder/ depression

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Sorry for the vague title. First off I want to go to the doctor but need to know how to go about this. I don't even know what kinda doctor to go to or where. Please help me!

I'm chemically unbalanced badly! I thought at first it was just Depression but I have had symptoms that sound very like bipolar disorder. My mom has a type of it for one. I grew up with her and I'm seeing Alot of her problems in me. Don't get me wrong I love her to death but as a kid I was never stable because of her mood swings. It's caused relationship issues and I don't want that for my future family!
I am female, 21, and live 3k miles away from my family. I moved out to Ca w my bf 9 months ago (I'm not prego) and I JUST like today started a job! So thats why I thought I was just depressed.

Well things are getting worse. I'll be fine for a week then out of the blue BAM. I'm in bed thinking everyone hates me and I majorly F'D up or that I'm just a loser-etc. It makes us fight, makes me cry and I literally DON'T want to but it won't go away!! I can't control it. I can think about it but just can't get myself out of the mood! I got so angry with myself that I punched myself to stop but it is only getting worse.
I dont want to be this way! I've never been like this before so often. ( I do remember having a couple handful situations like this but it was when I was 4-8 when my mom and dad and Granma where fighting to keep me. So I've been to 13 elementary schools :/

If this doesn't stop I'm going to loose everything. I want and need help. I'm fine now I just have a horrible headache and very upset of what my bf had to go through yesterday.
(also I threw up out of pure anxiety)

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  • MakeupYourMind
    12 years ago

    it's you reacting to all the changes in your life and not coping ideally. i would see a counsellor and also try some positive thinking. i have been there and it's not nice, but remember it's all in your head, not reality. try to think of all the things you are grateful for and be happy about the good things in your life.

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  • mellybug21
    12 years ago

    Thankyou so much! :)

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  • icanhascheezburger
    12 years ago

    Everything you need to know about bipolar disorder is in this website below; what to expect, different types of the disorder, who to talk to, what to do..

    http://www.bing.com/health/article/mayo-125963/Bipolar-disorder?q=bipolar+disorder

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  • kreeystlized
    12 years ago

    Talk to a psychologist or your family doctor, there is plenty of medication or emotional support out there! Good luck!

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