I need advice: Is it normal I feel used by guys but like the attention?

As a married woman I am strictly governed by my husband, in what many consider to be an old fashioned, outdated and sexist regime. But in my youth, during the 80s, I was a total slut and proud of it. Looking back I have mixed feelings, on the one hand I think I had great fun and wouldn’t have missed it for the world, on the other hand it feels shameful the way I behaved. These conflicting opinions really come down to how I believe the world should work. In my youth I believed if it’s acceptable for men to have multiple sexual partners, then as a woman I should be able to do the same. As I grew out of my wild stage I realised that as women we are not equal to men and therefore should not behave in the same way. So my point is this, you need to form your own views on equality. If you believe in equality then it’s fine for you to have multiple sexual partners because that’s what men do. Personally I don’t believe in equality, and think that it is unacceptable for women to have sex with lots of different men. So the answer to your question is that it all comes down to personal choice, and you have to do what is right for you.