Listen I have been through some really rough times. I was a single mom with mixed race children, my family and the fathers family would not accept me or my children. the fathers left. There was no one to care. I have felt the way you feel. Please be strong for now. Move from your parents house. The shame and sadness you are feeling is not yours to hold it belongs to others. Learn to put that feeling in its place. Use positive self talk "I am worthy of respect and these feelings that others have forced on me are not respectful." I will remind myself to change the subject and think more positive thoughts." Then think of some nice things you can say instead, like " I am a good person and I deserve respect."Think "I will be proud of myself and strong." "I will keep trying so that I can be stronger and stronger." Then treat yourself with respect and With practice this tactic should actually work. It is teaching you to be your own best friend. If your friend were going through this what would you say to them? You would probably give that friend some of the same advice you are reading and hearing today. Do this for yourself. Treat yourself as an actual friend. Practice doing this. Stick up for your self in your thoughts. Pretty soon it will be natural to think in a more positive way. Find a Gay support group, online or in person, make sure you like it, check it out for awhile, if you like, good, if not find another. Keep trying. Get yourself an apartment or a room near a Large Liberal University with graduate students, (because they are more reliable) and start putting yourself through college,slowly. Left leaning university towns like Berkeley will be more friendly to you and you will be able to make many good positive friends and remember if they aren't doing positive things you can't afford to carry them as friends. There is probably a Gay support group on many college and university campuses. Check this group out. If it makes you welcome and comfortable consider attending this school. Make good choices and take care of yourself. You are worth everything good and you can go for it. If you think you feel too bad to do it, think about how you might feel out of the environment that you are in now and in a more positive environment.
-from an understanding and loving mom
I Might Kill Myself Over Something Stupid One Day
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Listen I have been through some really rough times. I was a single mom with mixed race children, my family and the fathers family would not accept me or my children. the fathers left. There was no one to care. I have felt the way you feel. Please be strong for now. Move from your parents house. The shame and sadness you are feeling is not yours to hold it belongs to others. Learn to put that feeling in its place. Use positive self talk "I am worthy of respect and these feelings that others have forced on me are not respectful." I will remind myself to change the subject and think more positive thoughts." Then think of some nice things you can say instead, like " I am a good person and I deserve respect."Think "I will be proud of myself and strong." "I will keep trying so that I can be stronger and stronger." Then treat yourself with respect and With practice this tactic should actually work. It is teaching you to be your own best friend. If your friend were going through this what would you say to them? You would probably give that friend some of the same advice you are reading and hearing today. Do this for yourself. Treat yourself as an actual friend. Practice doing this. Stick up for your self in your thoughts. Pretty soon it will be natural to think in a more positive way. Find a Gay support group, online or in person, make sure you like it, check it out for awhile, if you like, good, if not find another. Keep trying. Get yourself an apartment or a room near a Large Liberal University with graduate students, (because they are more reliable) and start putting yourself through college,slowly. Left leaning university towns like Berkeley will be more friendly to you and you will be able to make many good positive friends and remember if they aren't doing positive things you can't afford to carry them as friends. There is probably a Gay support group on many college and university campuses. Check this group out. If it makes you welcome and comfortable consider attending this school. Make good choices and take care of yourself. You are worth everything good and you can go for it. If you think you feel too bad to do it, think about how you might feel out of the environment that you are in now and in a more positive environment.
-from an understanding and loving mom