I make up conversations in my head
I fabricate certain conversations in my head with people I would like to talk to. Usually its about something specific I feel the need to tell them, but not always. When I make up these talks, I've noticed that in my head it is a lot easier to talk about whatever it might be. There is no awkwardness, and the other person is understanding & has things to say to me too. It is kind of like a heart to heart, I guess.
However, I have never acted upon these pretend conversations, even when I want to. But recently I did, and (obviously) it didn't turn out like how it did in my mind at all. I know a big part of this is because it is nearly impossible to think of how someone else is going to act, regardless of how well you know them. But now I am wondering if it is my fault. I feel that I don't communicate as well as I would like to. It sort of feels like one of those dreams where you are trying to run & your legs won't move.
So, sorry if this is long. But tell me, does anyone else do this? Do you think its better not to pursue these conversations? Is it strange for me to feel that no one is as open with each other as they could be?