I literally feel EXACTLY the same as you. For me, I sort of think it's due to the fact that I want to be emotionally connected to girls without doing anything sexual. Therefore, an alternative--and what seems like the only possibility of me being sexually active--is to think about guys that I find attractive.
I agree it is very exhausting and frustrating. But really, I haven't done anything with either sex yet. I don't want to just sleep around with girls because for me, I would prefer it meant something. And I haven't done anything with a guy because I haven't found one to do anything with, and I'm too scared to initiate anything.
Eventually, I think I will find a girl that I want to be in a relationship with, and then I will be able to think of her in a sexual way as well. I just don't want to disrespect women and think of them in a sexual way since I'm emotionally connected to them.
I'm physically and emotionally divided.
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I literally feel EXACTLY the same as you. For me, I sort of think it's due to the fact that I want to be emotionally connected to girls without doing anything sexual. Therefore, an alternative--and what seems like the only possibility of me being sexually active--is to think about guys that I find attractive.
I agree it is very exhausting and frustrating. But really, I haven't done anything with either sex yet. I don't want to just sleep around with girls because for me, I would prefer it meant something. And I haven't done anything with a guy because I haven't found one to do anything with, and I'm too scared to initiate anything.
Eventually, I think I will find a girl that I want to be in a relationship with, and then I will be able to think of her in a sexual way as well. I just don't want to disrespect women and think of them in a sexual way since I'm emotionally connected to them.