I'm not sure how i should feel about my friend
I had a friend for 2 years that became a crush. Eventually stuff became one sided since I would listen to her problems but would leave me hanging when it was mine. It just became a text friendship and nothing else without pulling teeth. I don't want to beg to just hangout. I can understand if her being distant was because of my feelings for her but that's just assume. It felt one sided so I cut her off and to save myself mentally. Joe (another friend) reached out to crush so we can be friends again. I never asked Joe to do that. I did talk to crush again but soon stopped being friends again with crush since I didn't feel right about it and I still had feelings. One day I call Joe sometime at night since I was having a rough day. Joe is a really close friend and we would call every other day. It ended up being crush's voice on the phone with Joe. I was put off and Joe said goodnight. A couple days later Joe actually called me back and I got pissed since he waited to do so. He said he thought he could make both of me and crush friends again and that crush only had positives to say about me. I told him I don't appreciate him doing that since it played with my feelings and if crush actually wanted to talk she would reach out. I don't want Joe messing with my friendships. I already have a hard time missing my 2 year friendship with crush and I hate that I have feelings for her. I take it more personally since I thought we were close. I say that I'm fine with him hanging out with her but it felt awful when I was just put on a phone call with her unexpectedly by Joe. Recently I called again and he is hanging out with crush. I don't like how this is weighing on me. I just want to move on from crush but it's bringing it back.