I'm losing my mind.

If you were to keep a wild, predatory animal chained by the neck and tied to a post in the ground, never, ever fed him, and kept a soft, white rabbit just out of his reach at all times, how long would it take for him to strangle himself to death trying to grasp it?

Right now, I feel like I'm being strangled to death by the merciless grip of desire. You see, I love little girls. Little girls with beautiful, flawless, fleecy, pale, diaphanous skin, slender waists, long silky hair, velvet lips, sweet, melodious voices, and smiles suggesting a primordial simplicity, joy, and innocence that cannot be fathomed by the adult mind, or at least not by me.

Because of my job, I see many such girls every day. They dance around me, oblivious to their surroundings, hopping from one conspicuously colored floor tile to the next, caring not for the troubles of the world. Their giggles make my ears perk up like a cat's from several hundred yards in the distance. Their distinct movements give them away even when seen only for a micro-second in my peripheral vision. They even have a unique smell. They are above wearing the silly perfumes and deodorants that adult women hide behind, and their natural aroma cuts through the air like beautiful green vines against a backdrop of the dull, man-made symmetry of bricks.

My desires are not precisely sexual. I don't really know what their nature is. All I know for certain is that little girls are the only things in this world that bring me any semblance of happiness. I have no goals, no ambitions, no plans, no dreams that do not involve being close to beautiful little girls. I have no life, save the life animating this malnourished body that feeds on nothing but the energy derived from the mere presence of fox-faced female fey children.

I am losing my mind. For sure, no sane person could be this consumed with passion. I must be inhuman. Only a wild animal could have such a pathetically intense craving. I am strangling myself with this chain. Maybe this post will pull free from the ground.

Is this normal?