You have to learn to love yourself unconditionally.
Your problem isn't your size, it's your lack of self worth.
If you base your self worth on externalities, you will NEVER, ever be happy. No amount of muscle, height, women, money, status, goods and services will be enough to satiate emptiness. (I'm a female & weight train everyday; some of the biggest/sexiest guys in my gym, I kid you not, are also insecure about their bodies and self worth. They cannot hide it from me like they can from other men.)
You may not believe me (you're too young to understand) but people don't matter. Society doesn't matter to the extent that you don't want it to. Expectations from others...they don't matter. Who are they? They are just people, JUST like you. Watch those that make fun of you for your physique; I *guarantee* you, that if they feel the need to point out your lack, they also feel that they are lacking in some way (they are trying to ease their pain by poking yours).
You have a big problem if you're willing to kill yourself over people who don't matter. You're only 19. Wait until you are a little older, & in the work force. You'll see first hand , just how many people hate themselves and seek to inflict pain.
If what I'm saying resonates with you at all, and a lot more can be said, please check out this guy: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjt7bEwtlk6A6f_CiY2ZOlQ" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjt7bEwtlk6A6f_...</a>
Watch his videos having to do with self-love, and relationships. You need to hear the truth.
I'm incredibly short and weak, and I feel worthless.
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You have to learn to love yourself unconditionally.
Your problem isn't your size, it's your lack of self worth.
If you base your self worth on externalities, you will NEVER, ever be happy. No amount of muscle, height, women, money, status, goods and services will be enough to satiate emptiness. (I'm a female & weight train everyday; some of the biggest/sexiest guys in my gym, I kid you not, are also insecure about their bodies and self worth. They cannot hide it from me like they can from other men.)
You may not believe me (you're too young to understand) but people don't matter. Society doesn't matter to the extent that you don't want it to. Expectations from others...they don't matter. Who are they? They are just people, JUST like you. Watch those that make fun of you for your physique; I *guarantee* you, that if they feel the need to point out your lack, they also feel that they are lacking in some way (they are trying to ease their pain by poking yours).
You have a big problem if you're willing to kill yourself over people who don't matter. You're only 19. Wait until you are a little older, & in the work force. You'll see first hand , just how many people hate themselves and seek to inflict pain.
If what I'm saying resonates with you at all, and a lot more can be said, please check out this guy: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjt7bEwtlk6A6f_CiY2ZOlQ" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjt7bEwtlk6A6f_...</a>
Watch his videos having to do with self-love, and relationships. You need to hear the truth.