I'm depressed but don't know what to do and iin?

I don't want to tell anyone..not even my close friends. I put on a smile for everyone when it's all fake. The only time I'm happy is when I talk to this one guy who claims he likes me, but mostly just ignores me by not talking to me for a few days straight. I don't get why he'd do that if he likes me as more than a friend.

I have or had a boyfriend of 4 1/2 years, but about a month ago, I told him I couldn't talk much anymore.. I needed to be alone. I only did that because I couldn't stop feeling in love with this other guy for the past 4 1/2 years and now that he told me he likes me as more than a friend, I didn't know what to do.

He was once my boyfriend 5 years or so ago and we were so happy, but he went into depression and so, he withdrew from me and we never got back. Everyday I was with my boyfriend, I thought of my Ex, but I tried hard to get rid of my love for him..and now, this. I love him so much I feel like dying. I haven't told my current boyfriend as I don't want to hurt him, but this guy isn't always talking to me..he doesn't call everyday..and if he hugs me and kisses me and tells me he likes me more than a friend, WHY ignore me???

It hurts..I hurt. I feel so afraid. I thought I knew I'd end up with my current bf but I fell out of love with him months ago for sure. I don't even think I loved him, but my ex, I always loved him, always. What should I do if he keeps ignoring me or so it seems? I want to tell him I love him, but I never can...please help me. I don't want to hurt anymore and is it normal to feel depressed about this??