I'm always lonely
I always feel lonely and it makes me really depressed. People ask me to hang out, but I always make up excuses because I don't want to hang out with them, but then I complain about being lonely. I don't want to be lonely, but I don't want to hang out with most people. It's a trap. I love two people (my best friend and boyfriend) and hang out with them only, but they're not always available and it's tough to only have two people to rely on. Sometimes I just wish I could enjoy other people's company, but they're just so damn annoying you know. I'd like to go to parties now and then (I'm that desperate at this point) but I don't know when they happen or where because I keep to myself all the time. I wish life wasn't so boring and lonesome. Advice? Normal?