I'm already dreaming of next life

My current existence is really unfulfilling and has no meaning. It's all troubles, hardships, pain and suffering. Still in my 20s, I'm not looking forward to anything. That's not a life and it's not worth living. What's been driving me forward so far was the hope that things get better. Yet the opposite, no matter what I do or how hard I try my health has kept deteriorating each year, with multiple issues and pains reducing the quality of life to shit. Seen dozens of different medical specialists, none helped for anything. All the checks came clean and suspected conditions ruled out. Yet the suffering remains. I've already seen, judging by my humble life experience, that the direction is only towards worse so I don't hope anymore. I've given up.
I'm not considering suicide though since I know it's the biggest sin and it's also the way of the cowards. Also, I'm an only child and will be missed

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Comments ( 11 )
  • bbrown95

    I am sorry you are going through this and hope things get better for you. I am thinking of you and hoping for the best for you!

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    • Thank you good guy, I wonder what kind of a hater did downvote you..

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      • bbrown95

        No problem! I'm not too worried about it, lol, probably some butthurt person!

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  • lolasprat

    Ohhh please, don't commit suicide. Don't even think about it.

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  • mrblueeyes75

    My doctor said i seemed off or depressed he prescribed me Paxil and not even a week later i ate every one of my wife's script of 1 mg Xanax which is 90 trying to off myself. Funny thing is not one time before i started taking the Paxil have i ever even thought about killing myself ever. And that day i tried offing myself i never touched them antidepressant's or any others killing myself hasn't came up since.. So be careful on what meds you take cause some have deadly effects..

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  • See a psychiatrist and go on meds.

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    • I can't. The least, meds will disqualify from driving legally and my job includes occasional driving..

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      • There are non-sedating antidepressant meds available, they will not impair your driving abilities.

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        • They may not, but the question is about legality. In my country there is a formal list of 'narcotic substances' that encompasses both illegal drugs like heroin, cocaine, etc. and drugs that could be obtained legally but access to them regulated. All of these are classified as 'narcotic' and the penal code makes no distinction regarding DUI. Idk if there are some antidepresant drugs that are still not included in the list. Seems unlikely. Can you give some examples of these you are talking about to check them with the list?
          Also as far as I know they are all prescription drugs anyway and you need to first visit a psychiatrist. I'm unlikely to trust one even with my real name and where I work that will probably ruin the relations from the very start. What if they are some unprofessional piece of crap who spreads gossip around the city..

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          • SSRI type antidepressants are popular among prescribers(they are non narcotics)
            Examples of SSRIs include
            Fluoxetine(prozac)
            Sertraline(zoloft)
            Escitalopram(lexapro)
            Citalopram(celexa)
            Fluvoxamine(luvox)

            other types of antidepressant meds are also available.

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            • Thank you fpr the info, I'll look it up

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