k Mandy
here's what I know. First off I will tell you a bit about me so you know where this is coming from. Be aware I have been going on some really long days. I just got back from preparing for choir practice for the Christmas Eve service at my church. I have a close relationship with most of the 5 pastors at my church because I work in the church office 3 times a week. This is reasonable new experience for me. I have been there since July. I was born into a Christian family, dysfunctional and am now a recoverying Addict going on 5.5 years.
I think the best advice I can give is to share my experience. I am not sure what your experience with Christ is like. If you experience the Holy Spirit in a way in which you know God is a real and true God. Your Salvation and Life.
I have I walked away many times from Christ even after Baptism. I did not have good example/ role models in my life of how to walk with Christ. I did not understand why God put all these rules on me as a christian. I certainly did not recognize that God/ Jesus spoke these very things because he was concerned for my welbeing and wanted the very best for me. He has such a big love for us, All of us.
I have a non Christian Boyfriend. He tries to be supportive. He even reads the Bible with me and comes to church often. But he does not know the Christ I know.We typically fight about how my life revolves around Christ though.
I thought it would work because we loved each so much before. Our addictions tore our relationship apart once before but we are back together repairing the damage after almost 4 long years apart or so I thought.
I feel your heart ache and frustration.
It soon became aparent what was missing. I have a desire to have to close loving marriage like that of people I know who truly live in Christ like the Elders in my Church. They pray together, read the bible together, build relationships in the community, in life groups and in their family's, volunteer in service to Christ and the surrounding community of our church and worldwide. They have Christ like values, they are humble, admit their mistakes, take leadership, are acountable and hold other accountable. They live in community with Christ and share this outside of their community. They love in a way that is an action not a feeling- they act lovingly through Christ in challenging circumstances. They lead Christ center not self centered lives.
The more I see this the more I desire it. The more I experience the lonely void of the separation between the 2 most important relationships in my life. Jesus and my BF my heart aches.
There are many times I am tired and hurting and I pray alone or not at all, I choose the comfort of snuggling up to my BF or taking a nap or tuning into the TV to avoid life. In times of distress when I am at work it is not unheard of to pray together as a staff team we do it regularly. But with my BF he would never say " you are obviously hurting lets take the time to pray about that". There is no one to praise the grace He gives us in life closely and intimitly.I often feel single in my relationship because I do much of the social events on my own.
A Christian marriage unites you, your husband and Christ in a loving relationship with greater benefits then what I have been settling for.
In the past my BF and I lived common law. When we got back together I had such a strong desire to surrender to the journey Christ intended for me. I knew deep in my heart the kind of sacrifice Jesus made you, me and the world. His love for us is so incomprehensiable, it must have been so difficult to leave us, the thing he love so very much. I say no sacrifice is to great for God to ask of us because he gave everything, yet I risk loosing that in this relationship.
I believe God put my BF back in my life and I hoped and prayed and share with others in pray in hopes he would fully come to know Christ but I don't know that it will ever happen. I have become more and more unhappy.
I am very sad I love my God and my BF but I know God must come first.
Please tell me more about your situation? I would like to talk with you more. I hope sharing my experience has helped you.
I would like to know more about how you are practicing your faith. Do you have a church and a community your involved in? Are you living with your boyfriend?
What do you think Christ's hope for you was when he put you on this earth? How much love do you think he has for you? And how much love does God deserve in return? How do you honor God's great sacrifice and how do you honor yourself in this situation?
I ask myself these questions... they are so hard.
I recently told my BF how unhappy I was and what I had decovered about my desires in marriage and Christ. I challenged him to explore what being a Christian meant to him and that as much as I wanted to marry him I would never marry a non affirm Christian or unpracticing Christian. (he makes vague remarks about believing in Christ without entirely understanding it sometimes)
I'm a strongly devoted christian, but my soulmate is a firm athiest..?
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k Mandy
here's what I know. First off I will tell you a bit about me so you know where this is coming from. Be aware I have been going on some really long days. I just got back from preparing for choir practice for the Christmas Eve service at my church. I have a close relationship with most of the 5 pastors at my church because I work in the church office 3 times a week. This is reasonable new experience for me. I have been there since July. I was born into a Christian family, dysfunctional and am now a recoverying Addict going on 5.5 years.
I think the best advice I can give is to share my experience. I am not sure what your experience with Christ is like. If you experience the Holy Spirit in a way in which you know God is a real and true God. Your Salvation and Life.
I have I walked away many times from Christ even after Baptism. I did not have good example/ role models in my life of how to walk with Christ. I did not understand why God put all these rules on me as a christian. I certainly did not recognize that God/ Jesus spoke these very things because he was concerned for my welbeing and wanted the very best for me. He has such a big love for us, All of us.
I have a non Christian Boyfriend. He tries to be supportive. He even reads the Bible with me and comes to church often. But he does not know the Christ I know.We typically fight about how my life revolves around Christ though.
I thought it would work because we loved each so much before. Our addictions tore our relationship apart once before but we are back together repairing the damage after almost 4 long years apart or so I thought.
I feel your heart ache and frustration.
It soon became aparent what was missing. I have a desire to have to close loving marriage like that of people I know who truly live in Christ like the Elders in my Church. They pray together, read the bible together, build relationships in the community, in life groups and in their family's, volunteer in service to Christ and the surrounding community of our church and worldwide. They have Christ like values, they are humble, admit their mistakes, take leadership, are acountable and hold other accountable. They live in community with Christ and share this outside of their community. They love in a way that is an action not a feeling- they act lovingly through Christ in challenging circumstances. They lead Christ center not self centered lives.
The more I see this the more I desire it. The more I experience the lonely void of the separation between the 2 most important relationships in my life. Jesus and my BF my heart aches.
There are many times I am tired and hurting and I pray alone or not at all, I choose the comfort of snuggling up to my BF or taking a nap or tuning into the TV to avoid life. In times of distress when I am at work it is not unheard of to pray together as a staff team we do it regularly. But with my BF he would never say " you are obviously hurting lets take the time to pray about that". There is no one to praise the grace He gives us in life closely and intimitly.I often feel single in my relationship because I do much of the social events on my own.
A Christian marriage unites you, your husband and Christ in a loving relationship with greater benefits then what I have been settling for.
In the past my BF and I lived common law. When we got back together I had such a strong desire to surrender to the journey Christ intended for me. I knew deep in my heart the kind of sacrifice Jesus made you, me and the world. His love for us is so incomprehensiable, it must have been so difficult to leave us, the thing he love so very much. I say no sacrifice is to great for God to ask of us because he gave everything, yet I risk loosing that in this relationship.
I believe God put my BF back in my life and I hoped and prayed and share with others in pray in hopes he would fully come to know Christ but I don't know that it will ever happen. I have become more and more unhappy.
I am very sad I love my God and my BF but I know God must come first.
Please tell me more about your situation? I would like to talk with you more. I hope sharing my experience has helped you.
I would like to know more about how you are practicing your faith. Do you have a church and a community your involved in? Are you living with your boyfriend?
What do you think Christ's hope for you was when he put you on this earth? How much love do you think he has for you? And how much love does God deserve in return? How do you honor God's great sacrifice and how do you honor yourself in this situation?
I ask myself these questions... they are so hard.
I recently told my BF how unhappy I was and what I had decovered about my desires in marriage and Christ. I challenged him to explore what being a Christian meant to him and that as much as I wanted to marry him I would never marry a non affirm Christian or unpracticing Christian. (he makes vague remarks about believing in Christ without entirely understanding it sometimes)
My heart goes out to you Grrl!
Sister in Christ.