I have recently found out that I am bi. It was never something I imagined admitting in reality, but I can't hold it or hide it anymore.
I come from a family and culture that condemns things such as homosexuality, but it's not my choice as I'm sure it's not yours to feel this way. In fact, at many times it is unwanted.
I'm a sophomore in college and for the past two years I have been hangin out with my best friend who's amazing. We have done everything together. However, for about a month now he's been hangin with this really cool girl, and even though I'm really happy for him, I can't stop feeling terrible - most likely because I'm jealous
I didn't think I had a crush on him, but I've now accepted the fact that I do. But exactly WHAT to do is still an issue! I can't confront him. Nothing positive will come of it. He may understand, but things WILL be different between us and for the worse.
The biggest part is that I recently told him I was bi. This guy is really philosophical and understanding and we are still best friends.
Don't lie to yourself about being bi. You know whether you are or you aren't by the age of 20, so if you are, maybe you should let him know.
Granted, it's a Hell of a situation, so don't take it all in at once, and tell me how your getting through this!
ok this is gonna be funny, recently my dear BF converted to christianity, a thing that kind of surprises me, not because of the fact that we would become a christian in the hole extension of the word, due to I'm a believer too, but because I found some little details that let me assume he was feeling that affection as I. Well, not affection per se, 'cause we love kind of have that brother love for each other, but he was feeling attracted to me; and you guys can tell when that is going on. I was analyzing the situation, and he might have seen the conversion as a gateway of the fact that likes me jajajajaja. The problem here is, that he was changing towards me as the days went by. But not in a positive way as you would expect. he was trying to evade me little by little, doing things like to make me go away from him, very subtle, cause he would be coward as hell to talk to me, and put things clear you know! so since I'm a smart ass mo'foka :) I realize what was happening, and got really upset and told through facebook, that wished him the best but to never lok for me and talk to me again. that was like three weeks ago.
And basically we are no longer friends. I feel like shit you know, because I miss him so much. But I hope he is feeling even worst, because I'm being deployed to Iraq in november (his birthdate month) and how would you feel if you best best best friend in earth is going to war and you are doing shitty stuff to break up that friendship, because he is so concern of why people may think, that has complete buried his true feelings.... awkarrrd My wishes are that at least he can't get no sleep at night thinking about what he've done. :) Im bad!
I love my best friend, we're both guys.
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I know what your going through
I have recently found out that I am bi. It was never something I imagined admitting in reality, but I can't hold it or hide it anymore.
I come from a family and culture that condemns things such as homosexuality, but it's not my choice as I'm sure it's not yours to feel this way. In fact, at many times it is unwanted.
I'm a sophomore in college and for the past two years I have been hangin out with my best friend who's amazing. We have done everything together. However, for about a month now he's been hangin with this really cool girl, and even though I'm really happy for him, I can't stop feeling terrible - most likely because I'm jealous
I didn't think I had a crush on him, but I've now accepted the fact that I do. But exactly WHAT to do is still an issue! I can't confront him. Nothing positive will come of it. He may understand, but things WILL be different between us and for the worse.
The biggest part is that I recently told him I was bi. This guy is really philosophical and understanding and we are still best friends.
Don't lie to yourself about being bi. You know whether you are or you aren't by the age of 20, so if you are, maybe you should let him know.
Granted, it's a Hell of a situation, so don't take it all in at once, and tell me how your getting through this!
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ok this is gonna be funny, recently my dear BF converted to christianity, a thing that kind of surprises me, not because of the fact that we would become a christian in the hole extension of the word, due to I'm a believer too, but because I found some little details that let me assume he was feeling that affection as I. Well, not affection per se, 'cause we love kind of have that brother love for each other, but he was feeling attracted to me; and you guys can tell when that is going on. I was analyzing the situation, and he might have seen the conversion as a gateway of the fact that likes me jajajajaja. The problem here is, that he was changing towards me as the days went by. But not in a positive way as you would expect. he was trying to evade me little by little, doing things like to make me go away from him, very subtle, cause he would be coward as hell to talk to me, and put things clear you know! so since I'm a smart ass mo'foka :) I realize what was happening, and got really upset and told through facebook, that wished him the best but to never lok for me and talk to me again. that was like three weeks ago.
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And basically we are no longer friends. I feel like shit you know, because I miss him so much. But I hope he is feeling even worst, because I'm being deployed to Iraq in november (his birthdate month) and how would you feel if you best best best friend in earth is going to war and you are doing shitty stuff to break up that friendship, because he is so concern of why people may think, that has complete buried his true feelings.... awkarrrd My wishes are that at least he can't get no sleep at night thinking about what he've done. :) Im bad!