I like to cuddle with my blankets and pretend it's a girlfriend, iin?

Every night when I go to bed, I like to hug and cuddle pillows and blankets and pretend that it's a girl. I like to talk to my "girlfriend" and say little sweet nothings and compliments and just cuddle and "talk" as if it was a real girl. I have been doing this since I was about 7 or 8 years old. It makes me feel good and I see it as sort of an emotional release and practice for how to treat a real girlfriend. I have always loved to cuddle and hug and I have always loved physical affection ever since I was a baby; I have always been a sweet and caring guy (at least according to my peers, friends and family) and I honestly find quite a lot of girls attractive (My type is a cute, sweet and kind girl that has an interesting personality and loves to cuddle and be romantic). I have yet to get into a serious relationship as I am only 19, and I know that relationships in real life aren't all sunshine and rainbows, there's gonna most likely be break-ups and heartbreak, but one day I hope that I can find that special girl that accepts me for the overly feminine but sweet weirdo guy that I am, and then I can apply my "practice" in a real life scenario. Is my situation normal? I don't see anything wrong with it myself, I see it akin to masturbation, but for emotional energy, as I have always been very emotional and sensitive. Some people have their waifu pillows, I have my pretend time. Is it normal?

Also, a disclaimer that I thought was necessary; reading this, you may think of me as the neckbeardy basement-dweller NEET type (as those are usually the people associated with waifu pillows, a pretty similar concept). That is not the case, I am a normal guy (well, a bit more feminine and sensitive than a normal guy) that has a job and attends university, I am a little socially awkward and a bit socially anxious, but I do attend social gatherings and I have a life, just thought I would get that out of the way and tell you a little bit about myself <3