I know i can't pretend. but now what?
When you spend your whole life trying to be someone you're not, thinking that will bring you happiness only to find it does nothing for you at all. What do you do next?
These messages of just be yourself and don't care what other people think are so vague and abstract to me.
Literally the one thing I've ever done is try to please or appear cool to others it is the one thing I know. It is the only life I know. I can't point to anything genuine besides maybe enjoying the taste of food, enjoying touching women, enjoying sleeping, not sure what else.
I'm sure there are more things but its hard. I don't know how to find who I am from nothing.
I will talk myself into not being afraid to do something, that I would have avoided for fear of being judged and then realize I only thought that I would be judged for not doing it, and don't want to anyways.