I just need someone to talk to

My psychologist is gone and I don't get along with almost anyone. I am an only lonely and my parents kind of hate me. My best friend is gone too, so I really don't know what to do. I'm going through a disease and I'm scared the meds won't work, I'm socially awkward and don't know when to shut up because I hurt others without noticing so most people hate me but when I say something that's hurtful I don't mean it. I am so angry and alone and don't know how to cope with it. I try to get excellent grades but my mother criticises me for it and my classmates too. I don't have money to reach out to another psychologist. I just need help and comforting. Thanks for reading me.