I am having the same problem. I have never liked anyone in real life. I love a lot of things.. like cats, family, friends, etc. but I have never been IN love.. that is until I recently started reading BL novels... lol. Now I have fallen in love with fictional characters and I have masturbated to someone(a fictional character) for the first time in my life... I am 25. I now understand what being in love means... but I am in a crap hole now because the characters from these novels are too perfect, written by other females and no guy will ever come close to the characters that I am in love with(sigh..). If you are interested in those novels, they are the ones written by Chinese author Mò Xiāng Tóngxiù (墨香铜臭). Other novels are also good on novelupdates.com under BL and Yaoi, but her characters are the ones I am in Love with. The funny thing is, I am also obsessed with anime and grew up watching adult swim and used to really like Inuyasha. I wasn't in love with him though. I have also traveled a lot and met a lot of people, still never liked anyone and I HATE when guys in real life like me(it grosses me out, or they gross me out, maybe both?). I had a boyfriend for a few years, but we only had sex a few times and I hated everything about it. I even thought I was asexual, but after falling in love with the fictional characters, now I am completely confused, I don't think I can ever be in love with a real person. I don't find real people attractive at all... looks, personality, nothing. I even went to 9 different schools growing up because my mom would travel a lot. I had a small crush on one of my younger male teachers, but that was it. I didn't even know it was a crush until I had a dream about him many years later. still wouldn't fall in love with him though, it was a very faint feeling. I have even tried looking up male models that suit my tastes in different types of cultures, but no feelings at all, just a small amount of aesthetic attraction. Yet when I look at drawings of the characters from the novels that I like, I am completely moved.. I have a huge collection of those drawings on my pc to look at every day(sigh..--_--)
p.s. I find Asians adorable..(just look at this video.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCp2iXA1uLE) lol. Not sure if I could fall in love with one though...
I have only ever loved fictional characters
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I am having the same problem. I have never liked anyone in real life. I love a lot of things.. like cats, family, friends, etc. but I have never been IN love.. that is until I recently started reading BL novels... lol. Now I have fallen in love with fictional characters and I have masturbated to someone(a fictional character) for the first time in my life... I am 25. I now understand what being in love means... but I am in a crap hole now because the characters from these novels are too perfect, written by other females and no guy will ever come close to the characters that I am in love with(sigh..). If you are interested in those novels, they are the ones written by Chinese author Mò Xiāng Tóngxiù (墨香铜臭). Other novels are also good on novelupdates.com under BL and Yaoi, but her characters are the ones I am in Love with. The funny thing is, I am also obsessed with anime and grew up watching adult swim and used to really like Inuyasha. I wasn't in love with him though. I have also traveled a lot and met a lot of people, still never liked anyone and I HATE when guys in real life like me(it grosses me out, or they gross me out, maybe both?). I had a boyfriend for a few years, but we only had sex a few times and I hated everything about it. I even thought I was asexual, but after falling in love with the fictional characters, now I am completely confused, I don't think I can ever be in love with a real person. I don't find real people attractive at all... looks, personality, nothing. I even went to 9 different schools growing up because my mom would travel a lot. I had a small crush on one of my younger male teachers, but that was it. I didn't even know it was a crush until I had a dream about him many years later. still wouldn't fall in love with him though, it was a very faint feeling. I have even tried looking up male models that suit my tastes in different types of cultures, but no feelings at all, just a small amount of aesthetic attraction. Yet when I look at drawings of the characters from the novels that I like, I am completely moved.. I have a huge collection of those drawings on my pc to look at every day(sigh..--_--)
p.s. I find Asians adorable..(just look at this video.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCp2iXA1uLE) lol. Not sure if I could fall in love with one though...