I have lost all hope.

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  • That hardly sounds like it taps your true potential. I wonder what you wanted to do before you were even aware of rupaul's drag race.

    Also if this isn't real I love your sense of humour but suicide threats aren't a joke.

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    • I am sure you didn't mean for this to be as rude and condescending as it is, but you make it sound like the goal I have worked toward my entire adult life is not a worthwhile one and that stings a bit. I have wanted to be a drag superstar since before the show was on the air. I have been working the clubs since I was 17.

      Ru has always been my inspiration. When I was a kid I used to listen to her radio show on KTU in NY and watch her talk show on VH1. She is my hero and idol. The constant rejection of my application makes me feel that the person I admire the most feels that I am not good enough, and that is what really stings.

      Also, I am not planning to off myself. I just meant that the joy and purpose in my life is missing.

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      • Your right.

        But what is it about being a drag race superstar that matters so much to you?

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        • What makes anyone's dream so important to them? It's hard to say. But when I preforming I feel so beautiful. It's what I love to do.

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    • I am sure you didn't mean for your comment to be as rude and condescending as it was. But it sounds like you don't think it is a worthwhile goal. I have been working toward it my whole adult life so that stings a bit. It may not be your goal, but that doesn't make it a bad goal. I have wanted to be a drag superstar from even before the show was on the air, I have been working clubs since I was 17. I used to listen to Ru on KTU in NY when she was a DJ all the time when I was a little boy and have always wanted to be her. The fact that she keeps rejecting my application hurts because she has always been my idol and I feel like she thinks I am not good enough.

      Also, it's my fault cause it does sound that way, but I didn't mean to suggest that I was actually contemplating suicide. I meant it more like my life lacks meaning and joy. But I am not planning to end it.

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