Yeah, I was all into the idea of rape long before I got raped for real. My real experience wasn't at all like I planned it or anything so it didn't scratch that itch at all. It just made me obsess on 'real' rape more. I knew my head was messed up when I was wearing my sluttiest outfits walking by myself late at night in places I knew other women had been raped. Fortunately this didn't work for me.
What did was becoming a major cock tease on dates. I couldn't tell guys I wanted to get forced on so I basically let guys get as worked up as I dared and then put a stop to things. Then I'd relent a little and stop it. I didn't plan on being this way but the first time my date got tired of being led on and forced himself on me I was hooked. For me, if the guy didn't get the hint and simply take me, he went home with blue balls and it was all his own fault.
I have C-PTSD and I obsess over r*pe
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Yeah, I was all into the idea of rape long before I got raped for real. My real experience wasn't at all like I planned it or anything so it didn't scratch that itch at all. It just made me obsess on 'real' rape more. I knew my head was messed up when I was wearing my sluttiest outfits walking by myself late at night in places I knew other women had been raped. Fortunately this didn't work for me.
What did was becoming a major cock tease on dates. I couldn't tell guys I wanted to get forced on so I basically let guys get as worked up as I dared and then put a stop to things. Then I'd relent a little and stop it. I didn't plan on being this way but the first time my date got tired of being led on and forced himself on me I was hooked. For me, if the guy didn't get the hint and simply take me, he went home with blue balls and it was all his own fault.