Okay, I am a strange example, i am definitely obsessive compulsive, but only in the mild sense that i like even numbers and uniformity whenever possible. I do not,however bend myself out of shape when these things require more effort than reward (at least not much, still more than your average dummy.). I have an extremely high i.q. and memory, and I have lived an extremely volatile, and harsh life since about 8 years old. I do not know which of these factors to attribute my apathy to, but it is there, in force. I honestly can imagine both a delayed and a cold rational reaction to my own mother dying, whom I've been through thick and thin with.I seem to have this cold, logical, rationale hardwired into my brain, but cant say if it's intellect, o.c.d. or apathetic emotional responses due to years of heartbreak, but I can tell you one thing, you are not abnormal for seeing things as they are, flat and emotionless, perception doesn't have a goddamn thing to do with reality or facts and unperceptive eye see's only what is front of it.Yeah I crack jokes when horrible things happen, but I have learned the individual lines that each person I know AND care about have drawn in the sand. So when I do make an attempt at tragic levity, it's appreciated, USUALLY. This state of being really can be a strength, if you learn to use it to an advantage, never doubt yourself. Long story short, why would you want to be emotional, outside of your family and spouse, and then, even if emotions never grow, as long as you have a moral compass, you will only be seen as the "rock" of the family, is taht so bad? that is the way I had to spin it.
I have almost no emotional reaction?
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Okay, I am a strange example, i am definitely obsessive compulsive, but only in the mild sense that i like even numbers and uniformity whenever possible. I do not,however bend myself out of shape when these things require more effort than reward (at least not much, still more than your average dummy.). I have an extremely high i.q. and memory, and I have lived an extremely volatile, and harsh life since about 8 years old. I do not know which of these factors to attribute my apathy to, but it is there, in force. I honestly can imagine both a delayed and a cold rational reaction to my own mother dying, whom I've been through thick and thin with.I seem to have this cold, logical, rationale hardwired into my brain, but cant say if it's intellect, o.c.d. or apathetic emotional responses due to years of heartbreak, but I can tell you one thing, you are not abnormal for seeing things as they are, flat and emotionless, perception doesn't have a goddamn thing to do with reality or facts and unperceptive eye see's only what is front of it.Yeah I crack jokes when horrible things happen, but I have learned the individual lines that each person I know AND care about have drawn in the sand. So when I do make an attempt at tragic levity, it's appreciated, USUALLY. This state of being really can be a strength, if you learn to use it to an advantage, never doubt yourself. Long story short, why would you want to be emotional, outside of your family and spouse, and then, even if emotions never grow, as long as you have a moral compass, you will only be seen as the "rock" of the family, is taht so bad? that is the way I had to spin it.