I hate liking men - i am a girl

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Hello

I hate liking guys, I dislike checking them out. I get anxious and start to cry. I feel they won't like me back and if they do, they will find a hot girl and forget about me. Sometimes I find a guy with a pretty face and I can't help but look at him and then I get the feeling he is making fun of me for liking him.

I try my best effort not to look at them. I wish I could just not like men AT ALL. It would be great. I find men facesa atrative but I don't feel n love with them. It's not worth it because they will eventually find someone better looking and stop caring.

When my friends talk about or make jokes about male-female sex, it upsets me it make me mad it makes me angry and i also feel sad and deppresive. It's like everyone likes men and I am such a loser that I like them too....

I dislike it when girls like men in a sexual way. I hate it more when I find them attractive or check them out. It's like I am a stupid lesbian.

I like girl but I also check out guys. It's so stupid becuase I don't wanna like them and I feel so stupid when i check them out because it looks like I am practically begging them to have sex with me.
I am such a joke. I wanna be a lesbian, I like girls. But i am just sad, seems like i can't help but being a loser and liking men. It upsets me so much that i actually like physically guys.
I feel like I am f**ked up. I wish to date a girl. I am afraid to have sex with guys because I am afraid I could like it. Then I would become the joke, the lesbian who sleeps with men.

I don't wanna be bi, I wanna be a gold star lesbian, but I am just so stupid and keep liking guys physically.

Once I watched the OC and ended up angry and crying because MArissa had sex with Ryan. I mean male-female sex makes me upset, it bothers me. I feel like I am just not lesbian enough.

Btw, I am a girl. And I feel I am way too f**ked up to be in a relationship with anyone. I hate me and have way too low self esteem; please helpme I don't know what to do. I feel like crap mostof the time.

I hate liking men because they won't like me back. I can't even make a good lesbian. I am still too f**ked up and feel stupid for liking men...

Help me I feel angry and like i am turning into a wierdo. I can't afford a therapist and I hate that the girl that I like is totally into David and not into me. I hate the most that sometimes I feel like checking him out too. I am just such a loser anyway. Nor himor her will like me. I am just plain SAD.

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  • altruis
    14 years ago

    I like you.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    Stop beating yourself up. Period. Straight - bi - lesbian - it doesn't matter. What you are into, sadly, is self hatred. You are hurting yourself and that just doesn't cut it. Back away from the the sex thing for now. Give yourself time & self respect. You were right when you said you weren't ready. Just trust yourself - it will come together.

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  • Avant-Garde
    10 years ago

    I really think you should see a therapist.

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  • Chayce
    12 years ago

    Looks like you were hurt by a guy...

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  • BoredGuy
    13 years ago

    Actually you are completely straight, with a complete lack of confidence, and most probly a teen.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    look. just accept that you could probably be bi whether u want to be bi or not. what i would say to do is to start wearing some clothes that are tight or something to gain self esteem. maybe if u wear nice clothes guys and girls will like you. you should either take a break from repationships for like a year and jt NOT think about it at all, or just go on a date with a guy, see what it feels like, kiss him and if u r ready have sex if you think you want to. if you like it, then great! try and get a date with a girl too (if you can :/ ) and see what that feels like. choose in ur mind wich one u prefer (not what you WANT to prefer but think about wich one actually felt the best to be with, who you think about non-stop and who you are most attracted to). but im sure it will all work out, try and go to a counciller or get some benefits or a job or something for a therapist. hope this helps xxxxx (:

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  • Reborn
    14 years ago

    Can't you see a counsellor which are mostly free and also some therapist are free depending on which Country you live in.

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