It seems like the 'hate' is coming from feeling trapped in a situation you don't want to be in.
The affection and sexual behaviour could be due to a variety of things. But, according to how it made you feel, it seems like it was only a step up from masturbation for you and didn't have a whole lot to do with attraction. And, you're probably getting a vibe from him that it is attraction on his part and it's making you feel uncomfortable.
Be kind and talk to him with some respect, but you have to set some boundaries. You can't go on living like this if it's making you feel as though your accepting nature is turning you into a victim in this situation.
It is okay to say "no" and stop saying "I love you" if that's really not how you feel. Maybe start sleeping on the couch or floor for a while, until the mildew is sorted out.
I hate him, but I love him too?
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It seems like the 'hate' is coming from feeling trapped in a situation you don't want to be in.
The affection and sexual behaviour could be due to a variety of things. But, according to how it made you feel, it seems like it was only a step up from masturbation for you and didn't have a whole lot to do with attraction. And, you're probably getting a vibe from him that it is attraction on his part and it's making you feel uncomfortable.
Be kind and talk to him with some respect, but you have to set some boundaries. You can't go on living like this if it's making you feel as though your accepting nature is turning you into a victim in this situation.
It is okay to say "no" and stop saying "I love you" if that's really not how you feel. Maybe start sleeping on the couch or floor for a while, until the mildew is sorted out.