I had sex with another boy

I’m 19, and I had sex the other day with a friend of mine, a 17 year old boy.

I feel so guilty. I’ve tried for so many years to hide being gay. My parents hate gay people. My great uncle was in jail for a little while after he and some friends threw a gay man off a bridge and almost killed him. My whole family is incredibly religious. Their Catholic, and believe God hates all gays. They’ve read me chapters from the Bible that supposedly support this.

They’ve had me sheltered for all my life. I basically haven’t left the house in years. I didn’t even get to go to high school. I had to teach myself on my own (and I even managed to get into college, which I start next year). I’ve never had any friends or done anything. Just work around the house, and constantly being beat over the head with their “morals” and watching conspiracy theorists like Alex Jones give me the news. The boy is basically the first person my age I’ve met in forever. I met him online through a virtual gifted math program, found out he lived nearby, so every once in a while he slips over the my house during a 4 hour period when basically no one else is at home because of work schedules.

I feel like I’ve done something awful. I enjoyed it and I feel like a bad person because of that.

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Comments ( 22 )
  • litelander8

    Being gay is cool. Relax. And cheers on loosing your virginity. My family is Catholic but they’re all cool with queers as my sister is one. You should get as far away from them as possible.

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  • YoloKingSwag69

    You're very normal, it's okay to be gay. Whatever your parents had put in your brain about Homosexuality, throw it out of your head because they are untrue. I'm kinda concerned about your well-being however. Please for your safety do not tell your parents.

    Please be careful about who you tell around your parents and their community. As soon as the moment presents itself and you can move away, get as far away from your parents as humanely possible. If they've expressed and put this much emphasis on how much they hate gay people to the point it makes you feel guilty for it, it's most likely they will not change.

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  • Congratulations, you woke up from your indoctrination :3

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  • Preschoolgamer

    You are gay. So what the big deal? My youngest brother is gay and I am transgender as well as bisexual. Be yourself and screw what other people think

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  • MyZephyr

    Being gay is offensive to God in the Old Testament - The Law. Christians constantly forget that Jesus Christ came to END the law. Look what Leviticus says about Eunuchs (a sexual minority) yet the first identified conversion to Christianity was the Ethiopian Eunuch. Be gay, don't be guilty.

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    • sfj2741

      I'm gay as fuck and know this isn't true. Christians haven't forgotten Jesus Christ came to end the law, because he didn't. He came to fulfill it, specifically the sacrificial/ceremonial law, not the moral. That's just ridiculous. And 'eunuch' isn't synonymous with 'gay'. That also is ridiculous

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  • ohnolen

    No problem... you have your whole life ahead of you and should experience everything at least once and if you like it you can do it again... Bisexual experience or even gay sex can be very erotic and fun... If you enjoyed it, I say great...

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  • RoseIsabella

    No offense, but your family sounds scary, and abusive. As far as what your great uncle did I would consider that attempted murder! I hope you can get away from your family.

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  • Puguento

    bom, o pessoal já falou oque eu ia falar nos comentários, mas só tome cuidado para quem você fala que você é gay, de alguma forma essa informação pode chegar nos seus pais, já sabe oque pode acontecer -b

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  • Bazinga

    No worries. When you get to college, try sex with girls. You may think they feel even better.

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    • Stevieboy8890

      Bruh that’s not how gay people work

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      • SmokeEverything

        Yeah being gay is like a werewolf. You do gay stuff with a gay and it makes you into a gay forever. Sometimes the guy won't even tell you he's gay til the sex is over and then you wind up gay on accident.

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      • einexile

        It's exactly how sexuality works. If he were straight and somebody told him to try a same sex encounter would you tell him no way, don't bother, not how it works?

        People try new things and sometimes like them and sometimes decide yeah no. Nobody should be discouraged from trying something new so long as it is safe and not exploitative of other people. Opposite sex relations are good for your heath and vital to the experience of raising a family, and anybody who can stand it should spend at least some of their time doing it.

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  • Plato003

    It’s too bad you didn’t meet up with a girl first, before you went down the other road. Nothing wrong with being bi either. Best of both worlds.

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    • AC_NXS

      If he is gay, it wouldn’t have mattered. I slept with a girl before I slept with a guy. Quite a few in fact. I tried to hide being gay so badly! But that wasn’t who I was nor was it who I was attracted to. Once I finally came out of the closet, there was a giant weight lifted off my shoulders and I was able to truly be happy (up to the point where my father disowned me). People don’t realize, a gay guy can sleep with a female. It is possible. Being gay is defined as being attracted to a member of the same sex. It doesn’t mean that he person is incapable of sex with the opposite sex, we’re just not wired to be attracted to them. We don’t seek them out as a mate. But if need be, I can make my dick hard and I can get it in a pussy and I can get it off, a hole is a hole. The back of a head is a back of a head. Anybody who disagrees with me is lying to themself. Or hell, maybe I’m just weird.

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  • einexile

    Speaking for Catholics everywhere, no we don't hate gays. We're not even allowed to hate gays.

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  • Orphan

    Dude, u might of just met your first boyfriend. U should be enjoying this moment. I had a big smile on my face for like 2 weeks when i first had sex.
    Like, move out.

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  • DADNSCAL

    Normal all the way. I was in a very similar situation at your age. I knew I liked girls but thought I liked boys, and experimented with a friend and like it a lot. But I was raised Catholic and had huge guilt feelings. I worked through it after I moved out on my own, and realized that I was bi. Good luck,

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  • organguzzler

    hey!! its ok to be gay!! im a trans bisexual man! you can like whoever you want,, whatever makes you happy is what makes you happy. id say dont tell your family until youre out of the house though,, not because i dont want you to be you but,, for your safety.

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  • Janacac

    I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time with the morality issue. That kind of indoctrination is difficult to deal with. You are not a bad person or morally wrong or condemned by God. Be gentle with yourself and work on accepting yourself just as you are, even accepting the guilt...for example saying to yourself “huh, look at that, all that guilt. It is what it is.” And then breath and relax. Let go. You don’t have to fix yourself cuz there’s nothing that needs fixing.

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  • KacyWatson

    Perfectly normal. If you and your friend are both comfortable with having sex with eachother. Nothing wrong with it. No shame & enjoy :)

    Nothing wrong with 2 gay friends having a good time.

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  • Tommythecaty

    Ok

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