I feel weird

I'm 18 years old, a couple of days ago, I woke guilty all of a sudden because when I was 14, there was a neighbor of mine who was smaller than me and had femenine features, things weren't weird until one night I was masturbating and fantasized about raping and or having sex with him if we were in prison. I have no desire for him or any other male for that matter, I wasn't bothered by it until a couple days ago, and I haven't been able to eat or wake up without shame and guilt. I've been heterosexual and a sex fiend for pussy for as long as I can remember. Since this sudden guilt, I've had no sex drive either out of guilt and embarrassment, or this sudden fear of becoming gay which I know isn't possible but still scares me wen I'm around my guy friends, I know it's prolly just a phase but idk.

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  • welkinson

    Its fine as long as you don't actually rape him

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  • anitagreen420

    its alright to have strange fantasies and kinky desires "different strokes for different folks" as long as they are of legal age and it is consensual between the ones doing it

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  • ccjigsaw

    I noticed a trend with dreams. Often dreams will remind you of things that are about to disappear from your mind. Basically, when you are starting to forget something, your brain is sort of "asking" you. Do you want to remember this? You can put it in the back of your mind and it will go away for a long time again, or you can suffer and indulge in it and remember. It's best to just ignore it and move on. If you try to forget it again things will get better

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  • Jmall

    I can't get this out of my head. It's continuously bothering me. I know I'm not gay but my mind is at odds now because of the guilt.

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