, sometimes serious neglect can cause people to be like this , but people should be aware that sometimes your just born that way, i was in prison for a couple months and I minored in psychology business major at Ucla , so I am aware of a lot of aspects of adolescence and its effects on the person you become later on
I became involved in gangs inside because I'm not into the aspect of authority SOMETIMES , I won't say what prison I was in just in case but those familiar with jails know that county or regular jail are not the same as a state prison , overall I'm Mexican so my stupid actions got the attention of high ranking members , I'm not really violent it's my last resort when talking the situation out won't work , I usually avoid conflicts and walk away from arguments all the time , but you can't really do that in there so a lot of my confrontations were settled in private sectors of the yard and inside cells , needless to say it resulted in me being stabbed and me stabbing other people , I'm not tuff and I'm a quiet guy I mind my business and tried to do my small sentence ,im not a street fighter I've been in 2 fights in elementary and once in high school,
Overall I was sent to a stricter side for a while and met a couple people that I would never want to meet again for various reasons , I became pretty cool with these older and younger dudes that were part of the "La Eme" (Mexican mafia) in order to be initiated you really need to have a propensity for violence usually the younger dudes late 20s early 30s were more active than the older dudes they were less habitual violent offenders but don't get it twisted one word and somehow they could have you killed eating dinner in your house in LA while watching sabado gigante while they' sit in a cell and go outside in a cage for an hour ,
I talked to them about how they grew up quiet a few that were killers , had really good childhoods no abuse , no family mental illness, good hardworking families , no nothing , it always made me wonder about what could have gone wrong that they ended up like this , one guy who stuck out and who will always haunt me had a life sentence for a murder he didn't commit , he killed people he was just in jail for one he didn't it was a sick joke he liked telling , it made me uncomfortable being around him, but from what He told me I talked to him using psycho analytical questions that I had come up with since I really wanted to poke his brain without him knowing , that and he was a very short fuse person (they really take offense to being judged they think everyone is making fun of them for some reason
)
What I leaned from the few talks I had with him (he was set to be moved to the 23hr solitary)
He was a cold person, something he had known as a child, he had by his account a great childhood , memories of his parents that should make him happy didn't, he had no love , as much love as was given to him even any emotion whether negative or positive nothing really touched him he was just numb he felt nothing and cared for nothing, he was numb and that's all he could say he was born numb and he was where he belonged
he didn't care, no remorse for nothing not one emotion came of his face other than a smile from his own jokes , his family was well off financially growing up he went to private schools being home schooled even when times were tuff for his family no trauma no nothing no abuse, nada , it wasn't enough for me to validate any of those situations as being a trigger to his choices , but his actions and his reputation really proved to me that sometimes people are just born that way , these people aren't alright and they belong in jail especially for what he said he did and what people respected him for . Sick fuck and dangerous
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, sometimes serious neglect can cause people to be like this , but people should be aware that sometimes your just born that way, i was in prison for a couple months and I minored in psychology business major at Ucla , so I am aware of a lot of aspects of adolescence and its effects on the person you become later on
I became involved in gangs inside because I'm not into the aspect of authority SOMETIMES , I won't say what prison I was in just in case but those familiar with jails know that county or regular jail are not the same as a state prison , overall I'm Mexican so my stupid actions got the attention of high ranking members , I'm not really violent it's my last resort when talking the situation out won't work , I usually avoid conflicts and walk away from arguments all the time , but you can't really do that in there so a lot of my confrontations were settled in private sectors of the yard and inside cells , needless to say it resulted in me being stabbed and me stabbing other people , I'm not tuff and I'm a quiet guy I mind my business and tried to do my small sentence ,im not a street fighter I've been in 2 fights in elementary and once in high school,
Overall I was sent to a stricter side for a while and met a couple people that I would never want to meet again for various reasons , I became pretty cool with these older and younger dudes that were part of the "La Eme" (Mexican mafia) in order to be initiated you really need to have a propensity for violence usually the younger dudes late 20s early 30s were more active than the older dudes they were less habitual violent offenders but don't get it twisted one word and somehow they could have you killed eating dinner in your house in LA while watching sabado gigante while they' sit in a cell and go outside in a cage for an hour ,
I talked to them about how they grew up quiet a few that were killers , had really good childhoods no abuse , no family mental illness, good hardworking families , no nothing , it always made me wonder about what could have gone wrong that they ended up like this , one guy who stuck out and who will always haunt me had a life sentence for a murder he didn't commit , he killed people he was just in jail for one he didn't it was a sick joke he liked telling , it made me uncomfortable being around him, but from what He told me I talked to him using psycho analytical questions that I had come up with since I really wanted to poke his brain without him knowing , that and he was a very short fuse person (they really take offense to being judged they think everyone is making fun of them for some reason
)
What I leaned from the few talks I had with him (he was set to be moved to the 23hr solitary)
He was a cold person, something he had known as a child, he had by his account a great childhood , memories of his parents that should make him happy didn't, he had no love , as much love as was given to him even any emotion whether negative or positive nothing really touched him he was just numb he felt nothing and cared for nothing, he was numb and that's all he could say he was born numb and he was where he belonged
he didn't care, no remorse for nothing not one emotion came of his face other than a smile from his own jokes , his family was well off financially growing up he went to private schools being home schooled even when times were tuff for his family no trauma no nothing no abuse, nada , it wasn't enough for me to validate any of those situations as being a trigger to his choices , but his actions and his reputation really proved to me that sometimes people are just born that way , these people aren't alright and they belong in jail especially for what he said he did and what people respected him for . Sick fuck and dangerous