I feel like i should tell somebody
I've never spoken to anyone I know directly about this. When I was 12, my older brother, who was 17 at the time, was left in charge while our parents were gone. There was a time when they said they wouldn't be back till noon the next day, so we were going to be alone for over 24 hours. That night my brother locked came into the bathroom while I was showering and took advantage of me. Afterwards he locked me in there till I swore not to tell anyone. A few years later, my brother was convicted for other crimes, and is serving his sentence.
Despite this, I still haven't told anyone what happened that night. But as time goes on, I feel like this secret is eating away at me from the inside out. I spend a lot of time shut in my room crying. The memory of it almost hurts a much as when it actually happened. I feel like I need to tell someone. But I don't want to change how people see me because of this. I feel lost, like I'm at a dead end.