I feel like: i don't belong to my family.
When I was in middle school, I hated being around my family. I felt like I didn't fit in. It was really difficult to be myself in that family without someone judging me.
Whenever we had dinner I felt like I was the weird kid sitting with the popular kids. I felt (and still do) so uncomfortable . And I had an older sister who was just cruel! She picked on my weight and my acne growing up. She made me felt so disgusted with myself. I remembered I got in fight with her because I was fed up with her. My mom didn't do anything to defend me. All she said was just to ignore her. How can you ignore someone whose calling you name a few feet away from you? The next day she tried being nice to me so she could borrow money from me. Usually I forgive and forget but that day I put my foot down and told her no. She treated me like shit. She made ugly faces and rude comments whenever I was around. She was like my own Regina Gorge.
Finally she moved away but that didn't help. I was still felt uncomfortable with my family. Then I got a scholarship in UTB with a dorm included (Thank God) and moved away. I haven't seen my family in 3 months and I'm planning to keep it that way.