I feel like garbage.

Maybe someone doesn't love you enough to take away the pain in your heart.

It's not my fault.

sadly it is normal

Of course it isn't normal. Nobody should feel like that. Everyone should feel happy and safe.
Besides, beauty is subjective. Just because you don't live up to stereotypes in terms of beauty, doesn't mean you aren't beautiful in your own way.
In terms of having no friends, I'm sure you must have someone you can consider a friend.
Not everyone is confident, I'm very shy. I struggle to talk to people, even people I know. You just have to work at it, just try and talk to people, and eventually you will become more confident.
Most importantly, be yourself.
-Connor

I know what you feel.

Sounds lot like me.

I've had one of the worst weeks of my life I understand and God bless.