Urg, I think this post is old as the holidays are coming up. I decided to take a HUGE paycut by quiting my job to go to school and although I will have a better life because of it. It sucks now and I hate going hungry as a cheeseburger purchase will break the bank.
Yes, I know, I am sacrificing today for a better tomorrow. SHUT UP, I wore out that saying so much it now earns me an evil look from my fiance when she hears me bitching/mumbling/whatever to myself when I don't want to go to school or I am tired of being broke.
Now with the holidays approching, she wants to make a HUGE deal out of it as we are moving in together but honestly, I wish the damn days would not come. I do not feel like giving my family anything (Long and personal story, don't want to talk about it but it is fair from popular opinion around people I know why I feel this way.) and would rather be left the hell alone than scramble for a gift to each one.
I'm being honest. I recently gave my mom my Handicap flag for my truck to her for Chrismas. She isn't disabled but she likes to think she is and she KNOWS I am. However, its what she wanted and I did something I wouldn't want to do and that is take a handicap parking space from someone who could use it for this lazy meth addict, waste of space, good for nothing person.
What I will do for the rest and "pretending" I give two shits about the greedy assholes with college paid for them by my grandfather (I'm not mad, I think life is more meaninful when you earn it. I just don't need some asshole shoving this crap in my face when I am truly suffering from all the struggling I have been doing.) while I am struggling to make ends meet and failing just to STRUGGLE to get to their level.
Of course the bastards don't see this and they go on and on about their new boat or which horse they think can out run which horse of the other uncles. I mean, thats great but decussing my joy of adding Tuna Fish to Macaroni and Cheeze to break the monotony won't exactly impress these assholes.
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I'm ranting again, sorry. I just hate the holidays and really would like to see it pass without a problem. I guess I would care more if they truly earned something or even respected me for struggling instead of badmouthing me to my face because they think I grew up to become my mom. I'm sorry, I don't believe in drugs and will never try them. But these high and mighty assholes would be hard pressed to admit they are wrong.
--Funny, I usually don't cuss but I hate the holidays so much and I know this year it will be worst than before. My white trash inlaws and how they believe I will tarnish my fiance's womb with the plague of MS. (If the bastards did five minutes of research, they would know this isn't a problem but those arrogant son's of bitches won't lift a book to save them. Heaven forbid they might learn something)
I try my butt off to be better than I have to. However, like when I was playing on my fiance's "girl gaming site" of Big Sea Games as a deal because she started playing Team Fortress 2 with me, I shouldn't have to be always polite and kind.
When a person told me thank you for the fifteenth time in ten minutes for me unwillingly giving them a team bonus of SEVEN tokens, I should have a right to tell them to "Blow it out their ass". Of course the stupid woman ran to an admin and now I have my fiance complaining that I can't play at her site with her anymore.
However, I try my best to be polite but during a high stressful time, like a family get together that I am doing under duress, is it wrong for me to tell them to "Blow it out their ass" at least once.
Sad thing is if I did do this, and I really want to, I would be posted as the bad guy because of the whole thing I stated before, THOSE BASTARDS DO NO WRONG ARE ARE INCAPABLE OF BEING WRONG.
I Feel Glad The "Holidays" Are Over!
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Urg, I think this post is old as the holidays are coming up. I decided to take a HUGE paycut by quiting my job to go to school and although I will have a better life because of it. It sucks now and I hate going hungry as a cheeseburger purchase will break the bank.
Yes, I know, I am sacrificing today for a better tomorrow. SHUT UP, I wore out that saying so much it now earns me an evil look from my fiance when she hears me bitching/mumbling/whatever to myself when I don't want to go to school or I am tired of being broke.
Now with the holidays approching, she wants to make a HUGE deal out of it as we are moving in together but honestly, I wish the damn days would not come. I do not feel like giving my family anything (Long and personal story, don't want to talk about it but it is fair from popular opinion around people I know why I feel this way.) and would rather be left the hell alone than scramble for a gift to each one.
I'm being honest. I recently gave my mom my Handicap flag for my truck to her for Chrismas. She isn't disabled but she likes to think she is and she KNOWS I am. However, its what she wanted and I did something I wouldn't want to do and that is take a handicap parking space from someone who could use it for this lazy meth addict, waste of space, good for nothing person.
What I will do for the rest and "pretending" I give two shits about the greedy assholes with college paid for them by my grandfather (I'm not mad, I think life is more meaninful when you earn it. I just don't need some asshole shoving this crap in my face when I am truly suffering from all the struggling I have been doing.) while I am struggling to make ends meet and failing just to STRUGGLE to get to their level.
Of course the bastards don't see this and they go on and on about their new boat or which horse they think can out run which horse of the other uncles. I mean, thats great but decussing my joy of adding Tuna Fish to Macaroni and Cheeze to break the monotony won't exactly impress these assholes.
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I'm ranting again, sorry. I just hate the holidays and really would like to see it pass without a problem. I guess I would care more if they truly earned something or even respected me for struggling instead of badmouthing me to my face because they think I grew up to become my mom. I'm sorry, I don't believe in drugs and will never try them. But these high and mighty assholes would be hard pressed to admit they are wrong.
--Funny, I usually don't cuss but I hate the holidays so much and I know this year it will be worst than before. My white trash inlaws and how they believe I will tarnish my fiance's womb with the plague of MS. (If the bastards did five minutes of research, they would know this isn't a problem but those arrogant son's of bitches won't lift a book to save them. Heaven forbid they might learn something)
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Happy Holidays, they are coming.
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I try my butt off to be better than I have to. However, like when I was playing on my fiance's "girl gaming site" of Big Sea Games as a deal because she started playing Team Fortress 2 with me, I shouldn't have to be always polite and kind.
When a person told me thank you for the fifteenth time in ten minutes for me unwillingly giving them a team bonus of SEVEN tokens, I should have a right to tell them to "Blow it out their ass". Of course the stupid woman ran to an admin and now I have my fiance complaining that I can't play at her site with her anymore.
However, I try my best to be polite but during a high stressful time, like a family get together that I am doing under duress, is it wrong for me to tell them to "Blow it out their ass" at least once.
Sad thing is if I did do this, and I really want to, I would be posted as the bad guy because of the whole thing I stated before, THOSE BASTARDS DO NO WRONG ARE ARE INCAPABLE OF BEING WRONG.