My grandma died several years ago, and I remember having feelings similar to yours. Hell, if I want to be totally honest, I remember feeling like the upside was that I wouldn't have to visit her anymore. It's not that I hated her, I just was never emotionally attached to her at all. I mostly felt bad for my dad, but the woman was 85 years old for Christ's sake. I'm sure it's hard for you to not be able to be more supportive of what your parents are going through, but you can't force yourself to have feelings that aren't there, and the fact that you don't have them isn't your fault. I hate it when my mom tries to make me feel guilty for not being more affected by certain things, as if I'm supposed to tailor fit my emotional responses according to social pressure. Bullshit. I feel the way I feel, and I'm sure there's a good reason for it, even though it might not be a simple one or an obvious one. The same goes for you. I think the best you can do is take a good honest look at your emotions (or lack there of) and decide whether you're happy with yourself based on what YOU think, not people who have never walked in your shoes.
I feel emotionless towards other's emotions. What's the problem?
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My grandma died several years ago, and I remember having feelings similar to yours. Hell, if I want to be totally honest, I remember feeling like the upside was that I wouldn't have to visit her anymore. It's not that I hated her, I just was never emotionally attached to her at all. I mostly felt bad for my dad, but the woman was 85 years old for Christ's sake. I'm sure it's hard for you to not be able to be more supportive of what your parents are going through, but you can't force yourself to have feelings that aren't there, and the fact that you don't have them isn't your fault. I hate it when my mom tries to make me feel guilty for not being more affected by certain things, as if I'm supposed to tailor fit my emotional responses according to social pressure. Bullshit. I feel the way I feel, and I'm sure there's a good reason for it, even though it might not be a simple one or an obvious one. The same goes for you. I think the best you can do is take a good honest look at your emotions (or lack there of) and decide whether you're happy with yourself based on what YOU think, not people who have never walked in your shoes.