Wow, umm, ok so I googled "how to find out who you are" and "I can't feel happy anymore" but nothing clicked. Then I googled "I feel like I'm from somewhere else" and found this! Now since I firmly believe that there are no coincidences in life. No matter how cliche it sounds everything really does happen for a reason. The part I have a hard time with is why does it happen? I mean like really why are some people so cruel to others? I just don't understand how people can do such horrible things or what drives them? See I've been searching for my purpose or reason for being consistently for about 5 years. In some ways I've been looking my whole life but all I find is more heartbreak, harsh realities, confusion and an over all disgust for everything! I can't find happy when all I see is ugly and horrifying. Since March nothing in my life has been the same thanks to Covid19! It's ridiculous from every possible angle but that's a whole different discussion. Regardless I've been on a mission to find out what is really going on in this world? Well I'm starting to think that was a mistake! Now I'm being labeled a conspiracy theorist and truly believing that I am, kinda. But they're not just theories anymore, they're facts. Most of which I've found solid proof. So now I feel like I'm a gentle, warm, compassionate, loving being that's trapped in this cruel, inhumane planet that's basically a cess pool of digenerate, demonic, parasites that thrive on the pain and misery of others. It's like a real life battle between good and evil or god and the devil but I didn't believe in either of them a year ago! I'm so lost and it gets worse every day. I'm 42 and I'm more confused about who or what I am than I ever was as a teenager and I'm supposed to help guide and teach my sons and their friends? This is so UNFAIR!
I feel displaced, as if I'm from somewhere else
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Wow, umm, ok so I googled "how to find out who you are" and "I can't feel happy anymore" but nothing clicked. Then I googled "I feel like I'm from somewhere else" and found this! Now since I firmly believe that there are no coincidences in life. No matter how cliche it sounds everything really does happen for a reason. The part I have a hard time with is why does it happen? I mean like really why are some people so cruel to others? I just don't understand how people can do such horrible things or what drives them? See I've been searching for my purpose or reason for being consistently for about 5 years. In some ways I've been looking my whole life but all I find is more heartbreak, harsh realities, confusion and an over all disgust for everything! I can't find happy when all I see is ugly and horrifying. Since March nothing in my life has been the same thanks to Covid19! It's ridiculous from every possible angle but that's a whole different discussion. Regardless I've been on a mission to find out what is really going on in this world? Well I'm starting to think that was a mistake! Now I'm being labeled a conspiracy theorist and truly believing that I am, kinda. But they're not just theories anymore, they're facts. Most of which I've found solid proof. So now I feel like I'm a gentle, warm, compassionate, loving being that's trapped in this cruel, inhumane planet that's basically a cess pool of digenerate, demonic, parasites that thrive on the pain and misery of others. It's like a real life battle between good and evil or god and the devil but I didn't believe in either of them a year ago! I'm so lost and it gets worse every day. I'm 42 and I'm more confused about who or what I am than I ever was as a teenager and I'm supposed to help guide and teach my sons and their friends? This is so UNFAIR!