I just googled "Does anyone else feel like they do not fit in with "normal" people" and stumbled upon this. Did not think I would find something that reverberated so intensely with what I was seeking. I have been told many times I have an old soul… And as I grow older (I am only 20, but I definitely do not feel like the child I once was) I find myself not wanting to involve myself socially with society. I am a likable guy, I am very intellectual and I have always had a knack for manipulating people to either like me or get my way. When I was younger it was fun manipulating my principles to get out of trouble or getting free A's from teachers because I could read what would work with them. As of today I just feel tired of it… not like I am going to kill myself or anything like that, I am hardly depressed. I just don't feel like freaking trying anymore, I am literally constantly lowering myself in order to understand people around me. I have a strong sense of justice and I have met very few people ( Maybe 2 people, one is my best friend and one is an ex) who have connected with me in this way. Practically everyone I talk to manages to disgust me, everyone judges people for arbitrary reasons, or they care about things that I just don't see as worthy to fret over.
I wanted to be an electrical engineer… Strangely I am inspired by Tesla (The children of Tesla, perhaps? haha) and I wanted to continue his research (when I was younger) as I get older I don't know if I want to fight the good fight. Taking on that challenge is going to kill me, and probably be fruitless. I would rather aim low, live a modest life, teach my wife, my family and my children how I feel about the world. Try to elevate others around me than participate in the rat race… then I conflict with myself because I know that is not what is right for the world. If the human race is to continue on they need people that think like me, at least I think so, but at the same time I hate what the human race has become…
This thread helped me, at least to a degree. I don't like feeling the way I feel, as I feel like I am judging others which pretty much conflicts with one of my core beliefs. I want to believe I am not just some psychopathic egotist. I have researched Sociopathic tendencies and the way I feel, and the way many of you have described feeling is very sociopathic. I want to believe my thoughts aren't of a sociopathic nature. Eh, too many thoughts not enough time.
I feel displaced, as if I'm from somewhere else
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I just googled "Does anyone else feel like they do not fit in with "normal" people" and stumbled upon this. Did not think I would find something that reverberated so intensely with what I was seeking. I have been told many times I have an old soul… And as I grow older (I am only 20, but I definitely do not feel like the child I once was) I find myself not wanting to involve myself socially with society. I am a likable guy, I am very intellectual and I have always had a knack for manipulating people to either like me or get my way. When I was younger it was fun manipulating my principles to get out of trouble or getting free A's from teachers because I could read what would work with them. As of today I just feel tired of it… not like I am going to kill myself or anything like that, I am hardly depressed. I just don't feel like freaking trying anymore, I am literally constantly lowering myself in order to understand people around me. I have a strong sense of justice and I have met very few people ( Maybe 2 people, one is my best friend and one is an ex) who have connected with me in this way. Practically everyone I talk to manages to disgust me, everyone judges people for arbitrary reasons, or they care about things that I just don't see as worthy to fret over.
I wanted to be an electrical engineer… Strangely I am inspired by Tesla (The children of Tesla, perhaps? haha) and I wanted to continue his research (when I was younger) as I get older I don't know if I want to fight the good fight. Taking on that challenge is going to kill me, and probably be fruitless. I would rather aim low, live a modest life, teach my wife, my family and my children how I feel about the world. Try to elevate others around me than participate in the rat race… then I conflict with myself because I know that is not what is right for the world. If the human race is to continue on they need people that think like me, at least I think so, but at the same time I hate what the human race has become…
This thread helped me, at least to a degree. I don't like feeling the way I feel, as I feel like I am judging others which pretty much conflicts with one of my core beliefs. I want to believe I am not just some psychopathic egotist. I have researched Sociopathic tendencies and the way I feel, and the way many of you have described feeling is very sociopathic. I want to believe my thoughts aren't of a sociopathic nature. Eh, too many thoughts not enough time.
Sincerely,
Too smart for his own good?