I feel a deep connection to animals when I eat them

Kind of the same thing here, glad i'm not the only one. When my late husband, Paul Walker, died, I became very depressed. They kept asking me over and over if I wanted him buried or cremated, I said to just send his body in a FedEX package to my house. And eventually they complied after 3 different court cases. I opened Paul up, not knowing what to do with him. I looked him in his dead, light blue eyes and immedietly got the urge to make out with his light deceased lips. I even got some tongue in there. I then decided I wanted Paul cremated, but in my way. I put Paul in my oven and thought he'd be in ashed when he got out but instead he kind of looked delicious, I pulled out his hair and dipped them in ketchup and started sucking on the hairs. then I took a spork and jabbed it in his left eyeball and put it in my mouth and chomped on it like a grape. It tasted like vanilla coca cola. When I dug into his main skin, like arm and leg and waist, it tasted exactly like chicken. And this is where it relates to your problem, as soon as I gulped down Paul, I felt him. I felt my past connection with him and even got 3 or 4 orgasms in 7 minutes. The rest of Paul is in the freezer. He tastes so good but i'm contemplating if I want to eat the rest of him and have the risk of feeling his soul again, or burying/cremating the rest of him and having the burier/cremator seeing the state of his current body.