I feel a constant need to brag and appear better than others?
am really trying to better myself and become more humble. I am a sophomore in college. I have a long history of being bullied in highschool which has caused me to have insecurity issues. I really did not have any real friends until my senior year. I also have auditory processing Disorder and honestly probably ADHD as well. This means that socializing, especially in groups, is just that much harder for me. I have been a lot more confident in myself to where I do put self out there in terms of talking to new people but I am still overall really socially awkward.
Over the past 2 years I would say now I have become increasingly more braggy. I feel the need to come across as this smart and person who has friends. I recently joined a fraternity, where the people are all generally nice guys but I really havent made any real friends. Once again I feel like an outsider. In my head though I think of ways I can come across as smarter and better than them in ways. I even do this with my close friends. Also on social media. I have become increasingly obsessive with how many followers and likes I have.
One other thing I do and am ashamed of that I do is that I think about things to brag about before I go hangout with people. It might be a suddal brag about my GPA or something like that. Is this normal and how Do I fix it?