I envy someone so much that i've come to hate myself

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two years ago i became envious of a male celebrity. since that day i have thought about being in his place literally everyday. and when i realize that i'm not them or like them at all it really lowers my self-esteem and there are times where i want to kill myself. i can't stand to look at myself in the mirror and i become extremely lazy and anti-social. nothing excites or motivates me and i just want to hide from everything. am i normal?

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  • dudecalmdown
    11 years ago | pl

    have you tried killing yourself?

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  • c00lio
    11 years ago | pl

    Use your jealousy as a marker to show you what you want out of life and work out how you're gonna get it.

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  • MrSutton
    13 years ago | pl

    Whenever you have low self esteem just think about that guy who lives opposite you who is on dole and is an awful father who cashes his welfare check and spends at the bookies whilst his kids yearn for fancy clothes and whose wife left him and whose dog died, then you'll feel better, but slightly sad for them kids...

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  • user721
    13 years ago | pl

    You sound depressed. The envy you feel is more likely a symptom than the underlying cause.

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  • kelsey
    13 years ago | pl

    Get out of the house. Hang out with friends. Talk to people on MySpace. You seriously need to boost your self esteem, because girls hate it when guys aren't confident.

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