I enjoy recieving and giving pain. is this right?
okay so.. i've always been rather out of the ordinary and i'm quite different from alot of other kids. but one thing that i'm not sure is "normal", is the fact that.. well.. i LOVE being hurt. for example i have an ex, that used to get me by the throat, and i used to provoke her alot but she didnt know i was provoking her she just thought it was me acting me, but to tell the truth, i LOVED her hand squeezing down on my throat.. i KNOW thats not right, but i'd like some advice, or maybe for someone to comment that shares my story? i love to be dominated.. to feel like someone or something has power over me, and i have to try and look cute, or cry or scream to get myself out of the situation.. and also, she punched me too, and i liked it. strangly enough. plus i always fantisise over being raped, or watching people get raped.. and i dunno, i always feel like i don't want things to run smoothly. i love drama, and arguing at the early hours. as i have done many times before in the street and crying and making it all dramatic..