I dont have an friends

Oh it's common. I don't have any either. I like to piss people off rather than befriend them.

I don’t know if that is normal or not but I’m exactly the same way.

Nothing wrong with that. Most people are manipulative assholes. Better to have a few close friends than a bunch of fake ones.

Yes, you just prefer your privacy, many people do. Many friends can be as invasive as family.

Sounds like you have had some bad experiences. I had some, and it made me interpret things negatively for a while.
Lots of people these days aren't as social. It's usually when you see others with friends and socialising that you may feel lonely, but alone, and happy, it's not an issue. Maybe you compare yourself to others a bit.
There's no point in stressing. You can become your own friend, it's just good to have friends because other people are cool, it's healthy to interact, and having allies can save you in bad times, trust me. You're absolutely fine, I promise.

Most people have a core group of best friends, and all the other people are just add-ons along the way. As long as you have a small group of people that you can share the "real you" with you're fine. You don't need an entourage of friends or be popular.

Not gonna lie though, while it's not necessary it does make life a lot easier.

Two online friends is plenty enough for some people. Different people have different friendship needs. I only have a couple of them I only see occasionally and it's enough for me.

Use to have lots of friends, but learned hard way that most aren't real. Amazing how many stop talking to you when things go wrong! So just have couple real good friends now and don't care about getting more.

i ain't got any friends either

I had absolutely no friends throughout any of my school years.
Got bullied at first, then when I wasn't anymore and could easily make friends I chose to stick to myself because I didn't know anything else. I had a boyfriend but I never really got to know his friends aside from one a little bit. Then my boyfriend after him was a complete loner. I always had online friends, didn't meet them though. At 19-20 I started making online friends I also see in person whenever we're available, I also have 2 friends nearby but one recently moved back to his hometown unfortunately. I've had toxic friendships too, all my friendships with women. I only have male friends nowadays. I can't stand that frenemy bullshit. I like my own company though so I don't need many friends, but I don't think i'd be happy without a single one. I'm very careful with whom I let be my friend though, I don't trust people easily and I don't want friends just for the sake of having them. I think that's normal, I don't know. I'd say if you're an introverted person it is.

Theres my best friend then theirs my boyfriend. I like having few people in my life

I keep a very small circle, myself. I like it.

I don't think there's anything wrong with being this way, especially if it's by choice. Even if not, it doesn't necessarily mean someone is a bad person or a loser if they don't have many friends. Sometimes it can be as simple as that they isolate themselves and don't put themselves out there. Same goes for dating, really.

I also don't blame you for not wanting to get close to people again after a toxic friendship. I've been stabbed in the back by a few fake friends and have a very hard time getting close to people anymore. I don't necessarily think it's a bad thing either, as there are quite a few people who are bad news.

I first read this as I don't have a fetish.

Can you elaborate on the toxic friendship you once had?