I don't want to do this anymore

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I am graduating with a degree in chemical engineering,and was accused of academic dishonesty. Which later was dropped because well it was bogus and I was very honest. I have lost face in the department. I am seperated from my wife because of the rigors of school and am just tired of going through the days. It is hard to imagine a time when I feel better and the last time I have felt better. I just want to stop everything. I don't out of respect for others and not myself. All I have now is debt and am feeling more and more separated from all that I cared about. I just can't seem to snap out of this feeling and if life is like a series of unfortunate events that punish honesty and passion I just don't want to keep doing this.

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  • AntoniusBlock
    13 years ago

    When I was an undergraduate, I was accused of academic dishonesty--the accusation was later retracted. I decided, instead of getting pissed off and offended, to take it as a compliment, that my instructor thought I had stolen my work straight from an academic journal... but the fact that they have retracted your accusation, too, and you've still "lost face in the department" is screwed up--seriously, f-ck them! F-ck all people who would, as you eloquently put it, "punish honesty and passion." But stick to it--prove them wrong. And ask somebody WHY it's still being held against YOU that some asshole wrongly accused you of dishonesty--it should, on the contrary, prove that YOU have exemplary character for having PUT UP with that sh-t.

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  • robbieforgotpw
    11 years ago

    Often while I'm on the crapper taking a long dump, I'm able to make plans about life. I think the release of a large log stimulates the mind and gets ideas circulating, especially as the scent stimulates your thinking.

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  • TieDiedSuperstar
    13 years ago

    Hold on as long as you can, try to have more fun if you can.

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  • groman
    13 years ago

    Every motivational/emtional movie or story (especially) non fiction has the hero being persecuted and going through emotional hell before he/she reaches her/his dream... If it's your passion screw everyone else and show them! I agree with the last poster f all the people in your dept, and confront them if someone says something... If you want to stay in your marriage and love your wife apply that same passion is fixing your relationship.

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  • Justdreaming
    13 years ago

    If you're as honest as you say you are, you're an incredibly valuable person. I wish there were more truly honest people in the world. People fucking fail at it.

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  • ticklemypickles
    13 years ago

    Um?

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  • Fistelle
    13 years ago

    You sound so terribly depressed. Things will feel better in time, but please look after yourself in the meantime.

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  • mtnw
    13 years ago

    no wonder you feel that way now. you are still realing with that honesty thing, plus being separated. don't give up, it won't always be this way. good luck to you:)

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  • sportsmom
    13 years ago

    Sorry you feel that way. Hang in there. All your hard work will pay off eventually.

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