I don't know a lot about OCD, but I think I sort of understand your difficulties.
I don't know exactly what happened, but if he was really good, he could have got you into a sort of pre-orgasmic state and kept you there for a while, and that would indeed mess with your feeling for how much time had passed and what exactly he'd been doing.
If you actually had an orgasm, it's unlikely - but not impossible - that happened in few seconds. Although, as I said, our recollection of time is not the most accurate in such situations.
I know logically he didn't put his penis inside me because that would technically be rape and like you stated, I would have felt his pelvis on me. I do not know why i am so worked up. Mental illness is a literal nightmare. I'm sure there is more of a reason as to why I'm still obsessing over that night.
I didn't orgasm but he had told me he had been with 7 women so i assume he knew what he was doing. I had a lot of bad sex in my life with men that did not know how to pleasure a woman so I guess that might explain my confusion over the matter
I don't remember was i fingered?
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Thank you for being clear and straightforward
I realize my question was strange and I should of clarfied that I have OCD. If you are aware, OCD makes you question everything including your memory.
I am not experienced no, and i was more afraid of not knowing if the man violated me or not
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And no I don't remember him being on top of me
His penis wasn't small and neither were his hands..so I realize I should of known the difference..
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I don't know a lot about OCD, but I think I sort of understand your difficulties.
I don't know exactly what happened, but if he was really good, he could have got you into a sort of pre-orgasmic state and kept you there for a while, and that would indeed mess with your feeling for how much time had passed and what exactly he'd been doing.
If you actually had an orgasm, it's unlikely - but not impossible - that happened in few seconds. Although, as I said, our recollection of time is not the most accurate in such situations.
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You said that great
I know logically he didn't put his penis inside me because that would technically be rape and like you stated, I would have felt his pelvis on me. I do not know why i am so worked up. Mental illness is a literal nightmare. I'm sure there is more of a reason as to why I'm still obsessing over that night.
I didn't orgasm but he had told me he had been with 7 women so i assume he knew what he was doing. I had a lot of bad sex in my life with men that did not know how to pleasure a woman so I guess that might explain my confusion over the matter