I don't like to eat
I am not anorexic. I just find eating a nasty chore. I eat smoothies and protein bars when I am alone. I hate watching other people eat. It is repulsive-like pigs at a trough. I have very limited human relationships because of this. I was bridesmaid at my sister's wedding but she is not speaking to me as I skipped the reception because of all the food and being pressured to eat food with relatives, and getting criticism because I don't like to eat.
I am attractive and have no problem finding dates, but the minute a guy asks me to dinner, forget it. I hate the smell of food. I hate food on people's breath. My therapist suggested I try marijuana. Would it help? Is this a disorder or just how I am? Should I try to change, or just accept myself?