I don't know if I actually have real friends or not..

I'm so glad i found this, because i've been going through the same feeling for the past 2 years. I went to a different high school then most of my middle school "friends". When i got to high school, i made new friends, but none of them i'd go out on friday nights with and hang out, like their other friends. I'm not weird, shy, or ugly or anything, i guess people just see me as a nice person who they talk to at school but thats it. I've made one real friend since the beginning of high school and more people like her as a person i guess, so she has other friends. i attempted to hang out with her friends for a weekend once, and i never was invited again. i've come to many conclusions about this. I've cried in the dark alot and i've went and layed outside in the nighttime, just imagining what it would be like to have a group of friends who are always there for me. At first i thought they didnt like me b/c i'm a little loud, and im mixed. then i started to think it was my personality. i dnt think thats ur problem though. and im pretty sure thats not mine either. i like to think that once i graduate, it'll all be over, and i wont need friends. So just live ur life, and be nice to everyone, and hopefully it'll work out for both of us